I was still working for the merchant on Broadway, and my prospects were of the brightest.  They all liked me and gave me a raise in salary, so I was now getting five dollars a week.  But, you see, I was spending money on pool and drink, and five dollars didn’t go so very far, so I began to steal.  I had charge of the stamps—­the firm used a great many—–­and I had the mailing of all the letters.  I would take out fifty cents from the money and balance the account by letters mailed.  I began in a small way, and the Devil in me said, “How easy!  You’re all right.”  So I went on until I was stealing on an average of $1.50 per day.  I still kept on drinking and playing cards.  I had by this time blossomed out as quite a poker player and could do as many tricks as the best of them.  I used to stay out quite late, and would tell mother that I was kept at the office, and little did she think that her only son was a gambler!

The Bible says, “Be sure your sin will find you out,” and it proved true in my case.  One night I was out gambling, and had had quite some luck.  The fellows got to drinking, and in fact I got drunk, and when I started for home I could hardly walk.  I fell down several times, when who should come along but mother and sister, and when they saw me staggering along they were astonished.  I heard my mother say, “Oh! my God, my boy, my only son, oh! what happened to you?” Mother knew without asking what the matter was.  She had often seen father reeling home under the influence of drink.  But here was something she could not understand.  Here was her only son beastly drunk, and she cried bitter tears.  She took hold of one arm and my sister the other, and we finally reached home.  I was getting pretty well sobered up by this time, and knew I was in for a lecture.  My mother hadn’t whipped me of late, but I dreaded her talk, and then I wished I had never met Mike ——.

Mother didn’t say anything until we got home.  She put me to bed, brushed my clothes, and told me to go to sleep.  About two o’clock I woke up.  There was mother kneeling by my bedside, praying God to save her boy and keep him from following in his father’s footsteps.  I lay there and listened and said amen to everything she asked God to do.  Finally I could stand it no longer; I jumped out of bed and knelt beside my mother and asked God to forgive me.  I threw my arms around mother’s neck and asked her to forgive her boy, which she did.  I determined right then and there to do better and never to drink any more.

I really meant to start all over again, but I didn’t take Jesus with me—­in fact, I think the Devil owned me for fair.  I was pretty good for about a month, kept away from Mike and the other fellows, and mother was delighted.  But this did not continue long; I met Mike again, and fell into the same groove, and was even worse than before.

Barnum was running his circus in New York then, and Mike and I decided to see the show and took a day off to go.  I had not got leave of absence from work, so on our way home we planned what we could tell our bosses when we went to work the next morning.