Then his parents came back to New York with him.  Two days before New Year’s Day they went to Spindrift House instead of sailing for Egypt, where for some years now they had been accustomed to spend the winters shivering at Shepherd’s.  And he and his sister and brother-in-law and Stephanie dined together that evening.  But the plans they made to include him for a New Year’s Eve home party remained uncertain as far as he was concerned.  He was vague—­could not promise—­he himself knew not why.  And they ceased to press him.

“You’re growing thin and white,” said Lily.  “I believe you’re getting painter’s colic.”

“House painters acquire that,” he said, smiling.  “I’m not a member of their union yet.”

“Well, you must use as much white lead as they do on those enormous canvases of yours.  Why don’t you start on a trip around the world, Louis?”

He laughed.

Later, after he had taken his leave, the suggestion reoccurred to him.  He took enough trouble to think about it the next morning; sent out his servant to amass a number of folders advertising world girdling tours of various attractions, read them while lunching, and sat and pondered.  Why not?  It might help.  Because he certainly began to need help.  He had gone quite stale.  Querida was right; he ought to lie fallow.  No ground could yield eternally without rest.  Querida was clever enough to know that; and he had been stupid enough to ignore it—­even disbelieve it, contemptuous of precept and proverb and wise saw, buoyed above apprehension by consciousness and faith in his own inexhaustible energy.

And, after all, something really seemed to have happened to him.  He almost admitted it now for the first time—­considered the proposition silently, wearily, without any definite idea of analysing it, without even the desire to solve it.

Somehow, at some time, he had lost pleasure in his powers, faith in his capacity, desire for the future.  What had satisfied him yesterday, to-day became contemptible.  Farther than ever, farther than the farthest, stars receded the phantoms of the great Masters.  What they believed and endured and wrought and achieved seemed now not only hopelessly beyond any comprehension or attainment of his, but even beyond hope of humble discipleship.

And always, horribly, like an obsession, was creeping over him in these days the conviction of some similarity between his work and the thin, clear, clever brush-work of Allaire—­with all its mastery of ways and means, all its triumph over technical difficulties, all its tricks and subtle appeals, and its falsity, and its glamour.

Reflection, retrospection sickened him.  It was snowing and growing late when he wrote to a steamship agent making inquiries and asking for plans of staterooms.

Then he had tea, alone there in the early winter dusk, with the firelight playing over Gladys who sat in the full heat of the blaze, licking her only kitten, embracing its neck with one maternal paw.