“It is not necessary to remind me. My mother knows it and will stand by her. Will you do less for your own brother?”
“Louis! You are cruel, selfish, utterly heartless—”
“I am trying to think of everybody in the family who is concerned; but, when a man’s in love he can’t help thinking a little of the woman he loves—especially if nobody else does.” He turned his head and looked out of the window. Stars were shining faintly in a luminous sky. His face seemed to have grown old and gray and haggard:
“I don’t know what to do,” he said, as though speaking to himself;—“I don’t know where to turn. She would marry me if you’d let her; she will never marry me if my family is unkind to her—”
“What will she do, then?” asked Lily, coolly.
For a moment he let her words pass, then, turned around. The expression of his sister’s brightly curious eyes perplexed him.
“What do you mean?” he asked, disturbed.
“What I say, Louis. I asked you what Miss West means to do if she does not marry you? Discontinue her indiscreet intimacy with you?”
“Why should she?”
Lily said, sharply: “I would not have to put that question to a modest girl.”
“I have to put it to you!” he retorted, beginning to lose his self-command. “Why should Valerie West discontinue her friendship with me because my family’s stupid attitude toward her makes it impossible for a generous and proud girl to marry me?”
Lily, pale, infuriated, leaned forward in her chair.
“Because,” she retorted violently, “if that intimacy continues much longer a stupid world and your stupid family will believe that the girl is your mistress! But in that event, thank God, the infamy will rest where it belongs—not on us!”
A cold rage paralysed his speech; she saw its ghastly reflection on his white and haggard face—saw him quiver under the shock; rose involuntarily, terrified at the lengths to which passion had scourged her:
“Louis,” she faltered—“I—I didn’t mean that!—I was beside myself; forgive me, please! Don’t look like that; you are frightening me—”
She caught his arm as he passed her, clung to it, pallid, fearful, imploring,—“W-what are you going to do, Louis! Don’t go, dear, please. I’m sorry, I’m very, very humble. Won’t you speak to me? I said too much; I was wrong;—I—I will try to be different—try to reconcile myself to—to what—you—wish—”
He looked down at her where she hung to him, tearful face lifted to his:
“I didn’t know women could feel that way about another woman,” he said, in a dull voice. “There’s no use—no use—”
“But—but I love you dearly, Louis! I couldn’t endure it to have anything come between us—disrupt the family—”
“Nothing will, Lily.... I must go now.”
“Don’t you believe I love you?”
He drew a deep, unconscious breath.