and my heart wholly set upon Letters, I went to the
University; But was soon torn from thence by that
violent Publick storm which would suffer nothing to
stand where it did, but rooted up every Plant, even
from the Princely Cedars to Me, the Hyssop. Yet
I had as good fortune as could have befallen me in
such a Tempest; for I was cast by it into the Family
of one of the best Persons, and into the Court of
one of the best Princesses of the World. Now
though I was here engaged in wayes most contrary to
the Original design of my life, that is, into much
company, and no small business, and into a daily sight
of Greatness, both Militant and Triumphant (for that
was the state then of the
English and
French
Courts) yet all this was so far from altering my Opinion,
that it oncly added the confirmation of Reason to
that which was before but Natural Inclination.
I saw plainly all the Paint of that kind of Life,
the nearer I came to it; and that Beauty which I did
not fall in Love with, when, for ought I knew, it
was reall, was not like to bewitch, or intice me,
when I saw that it was Adulterate. I met with
several great Persons, whom I liked very well, but
could not perceive that any part of their Greatness
was to be liked or desired, no more then I would be
glad, or content to be in a Storm, though I saw many
Ships which rid safely and bravely in it: A storm
would not agree with my stomach, if it did with my
Courage. Though I was in a croud of as good company
as could be found any where, though I was in business
of great and honourable trust, though I eate at the
best Table, and enjoyed the best conveniences for
present subsistance that ought to be desired by a
man of my condition in banishment and publick distresses,
yet I could not abstain from renewing my old School-boys
Wish in a Copy of Verses to the same effect.
Well then; I now do plainly see
This busie World and I shall ne’re
agree, &c.
And I never then proposed to my self any other advantage
from His Majesties Happy Restoration, but the getting
into some moderately convenient Retreat in the Country,
which I thought in that case I might easily have compassed,
as well as some others, who[2] with no greater probabilities
or pretences have arrived to extraordinary fortunes:
But I had before written a shrewd Prophesie against
my self, and I think Apollo inspired me in
the Truth, though not in the Elegance of it.
Thou, neither great at Court nor in the
War,
Nor at th’ Exchange shal’t
be, nor at the wrangling Barr;
Content thy self with the small barren
praise
Which neglected Verse does raise, &c.