Prud. Do you not find sometimes, as if those things were vanquished, which at other times are your perplexity?
Chr. Yes, but that is seldom; but they are to me golden hours in which such things happen to me.
Prud. Can you remember by what means you find your annoyances at times, as if they were vanquished?
Chr. Yes, when I think what I saw at the Cross, that will do it; and when I look upon my broidered Coat, that will do it; also when I look into the Roll that I carry in my bosom, that will do it; and when my thoughts wax warm about whither I am going, that will do it.
Prud. And what is it that makes you so desirous to go to Mount Zion?
Chr. Why, there I hope to see him alive that did hang dead on the Cross; and there I hope to be rid of all those things that to this day are in me an annoyance to me; there, they say, there is no death; and there I shall dwell with such Company as I like best. For to tell you truth, I love him, because I was by him eased of my Burden, and I am weary of my inward sickness; I would fain be where I shall die no more, and with the Company that shall continually cry, Holy, Holy, Holy.
Then said Charity to Christian, Have you a family? Are you a married man?
Chr. I have a Wife and four small Children.
Char. And why did you not bring them along with you?
Chr. Then Christian wept, and said, Oh, how willingly would I have done it, but they were all of them utterly averse to my going on Pilgrimage.
Char. But you should have talked to them, and have endeavoured to have shewen them the danger of being behind.
Chr. So I did, and told them also what God had shewed to me of the destruction of our City; but I seemed to them as one that mocked, and they believed me not.
Char. And did you pray to God that he would bless your counsel to them?
Chr. Yes, and that with much affection; for you must think that my Wife and poor Children were very dear unto me.
Char. But did you tell them of your own sorrow, and fear of destruction? For I suppose that destruction was visible enough to you.
Chr. Yes, over, and over, and over. They might also see my fears in my countenance, in my tears, and also in my trembling under the apprehension of the Judgment that did hang over our heads; but all was not sufficient to prevail with them to come with me.
Char. But what could they say for themselves, why they came not?
Chr. Why, my Wife was afraid of losing this World, and my Children were given to the foolish Delights of youth: so what by one thing, and what by another, they left me to wander in this manner alone.
Char. But did you not with your vain life, damp all that you by words used by way of persuasion to bring them away with you?