a widely different purpose) what the Romish Church
has ever declared,—that the Scriptures,
recording spiritual truth, cannot be comprehensible
to the natural understanding,—that, while
the Sacred Writings contain a natural letter, it can
be translated into spiritual verity only by a few
exceptional men. If this scheme of philosophy
was an idealism, it nevertheless manifested itself
through the plainest realities. The solution
of the problem seemed to come not from one point,
but from all points. Certainly there was a tendency
towards the supersensible; but this direction was
taken through stern grappling with the actual.
At one time I struggled against the august spirit that
was borne in upon me; at another, I was utterly subdued
by the lofty enthusiasm of the writer,—something
within me capable of absolute cognition seemed responding
to his appeals. But the pith and vitality of
this marvel could be recognized only by long experience.
And here the student was required to stake his soul
upon a perilous cast. For, if not pursued and
fathomed to full satisfaction, this view of things
would be disturbing, paralyzing. With any half-acceptance
a man might scarcely live. It must fashion the
mind as an artist fashions the passive metals into
a musical instrument, and then every event in time
might touch it to exquisite harmony. But the
more ravishing the beauty which seemed offered through
perfect realization of this knowledge, the more blighting
would be its effects, if entertained in the spirit
of a selfish dilettanteism. For in certain passages
were breathed faint suggestions, that moral codes
held sacred by the people could not bind the initiated,—nay,
that what seemed most evil might be so explained as
to become wholly legitimate to the elect.
It was far into the night. I had gone over about
a third of the manuscript. Sharp questions assailed
my ears. Was I bound to jeopard all the common
good of life for the chance of—just failing
to know existence from a higher plane? Could
I ascend so far above the frailties of average men
as to receive in purity and innocence the license which
acceptance of this strange scheme would surely give?
Dim-sighted as I was, it was necessary to rise and
dispel this splendid phantasm. I shuddered in
sudden alarm at the danger which threatened me.
By a spasmodic movement, in which I failed to recognize
any presence of my will, the manuscript was closed
and handed to Clifton. Welcome existence under
coarsest and harshest terms, rather than tamper with
such fearful possibilities!
For hours the minister had gazed into my face, partaking
the excitement to which he had subjected me.
He had lighted and trimmed the candles, as was necessary,
but had never broken silence. And now there came
from him the deep sigh of relief from an absorbing
interest; he sighed as a little child when the fairytale
is ended and the tense strain of attention may be
relaxed.
“What was this man?” I demanded, hurriedly.