Studies in the Psychology of Sex, Volume 6 eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 995 pages of information about Studies in the Psychology of Sex, Volume 6.

Studies in the Psychology of Sex, Volume 6 eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 995 pages of information about Studies in the Psychology of Sex, Volume 6.
which she professedly now do every day to dress me, that I may not see Willet [Deb], and do eye me, whether I cast my eye upon her, or no, and do keep me from going into the room where she is.  Ninth November.  Up, and I did, by a little note which I flung to Deb, advise her that I did continue to deny that ever I kissed her, and so she might govern herself.  The truth is that I did adventure upon God’s pardoning me this lie, knowing how heavy a thing it would be for me, to the ruin of the poor girl, and next knowing that if my wife should know all it would be impossible for her ever to be at peace with me again, and so our whole lives would be uncomfortable.  The girl read, and as I bid her returned me the note, flinging it to me in passing by.”  Next day, however, he is “mightily troubled,” for his wife has obtained a confession from the girl of the kissing.  For some nights Mr. and Mrs. Pepys are both sleepless, with much weeping on either side.  Deb gets another place, leaving on the 14th of November, and Pepys is never able to see her before she leaves the house, his wife keeping him always under her eye.  It is evident that Pepys now feels strongly attracted to Deb, though there is no evidence of this before she became the subject of the quarrel.  On the 13th of November, hearing she was to leave next day, he writes:  “The truth is I have a good mind to have the maidenhead of this girl.”  He was, however, the “more troubled to see how my wife is by this means likely forever to have her hand over me, and that I shall forever be a slave to her—­that is to say, only in matters of pleasure.”  At the same time his love for his wife was by no means diminished, nor hers for him.  “I must here remark,” he says, “that I have lain with my moher [i.e., muger, wife] as a husband more times since this falling out than in, I believe, twelve months before.  And with more pleasure to her than in all the time of our marriage before.”  The next day was Sunday.  On Monday Pepys at once begins to make inquiries which will put him on the track of Deb.  On the 18th he finds her.  She gets up into the coach with him, and he kisses her and takes liberties with her, at the same time advising her “to have a care of her honor and to fear God,” allowing no one else to do what he has done; he also tells her how she can find him if she desires.  Pepys now feels that everything is settled satisfactorily, and his heart is full of joy.  But his joy is short-lived, for Mrs. Pepys discovers this interview with Deb on the following day.  Pepys denies it at first, then confesses, and there is a more furious scene than ever.  Pepys is now really alarmed, for his wife threatens to leave him; he definitely abandons Deb, and with prayers to God resolves never to do the like again.  Mrs. Pepys is not satisfied, however, till she makes her husband write a letter to Deb, telling her that she is little better than a whore, and that he hates her, though Deb is spared this, not by any
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