of desire were periodic, about ten or fourteen days apart, and would last several days.  I must record also the fact that from the time this awakening took place my ideal views of woman no longer seemed incompatible with sexual relations.  I noticed that at about 27 there was a lessening of the desire, but that may have been due to overwork and consequent nervous exhaustion.  I had a good deal of worry and studied daily for about eight hours.  In any case the impulse was strongest during the years above mentioned.  A little later in life, for a time, I became attached to a girl, and eventually engaged.  I then observed, greatly to my sorrow and annoyance, that whenever I met this lady, or even thought of her, erections took place.  This was particularly painful to me, as my thoughts were not of a lustful or impure character.  Sometimes sitting by her at a religious service this would occur, when certainly my mind was far away from anything of the kind.  That was the first woman ever kissed by me, except of course members of my immediate family circle.  Later on my thoughts turned to marriage, and there was a great longing at times for this event to take place.  However, as this attachment afterward became the great sorrow of my life for years, it needs no more comment.  This closes one chapter of my history, and at present I do not propose to add another, as in a great measure it is only partly written.  It may be well here to state that there has never been in me the slightest homosexual desire; in fact it has always appeared as a thing utterly inconceivable and disgustingly loathsome.  I am fond of the society of both men and women, but on the whole prefer the latter.  I have had several warm and intimate though platonic friendships, and get on exceedingly well with the other sex, although not a good-looking man.  I have always been attracted to women by their spiritual or mental qualities, rather than by physical beauty, and feel strongly that the latter alone would never cause me to desire coitus.  Unless there was an attraction other than that of the flesh, I should feel that I was following simply a brute instinct, and it would jar with my higher nature and cause revulsion.  This was not the case in my earlier years to the same extent.  I have often wondered whether the sexual impulse was strong in me or not, but if not, there is nothing in my physical state or family history to account for it.  I am fairly cognizant with the lives of my ancestors, being descended from two old families.  The sexual instinct was certainly not weak or abnormal in them.  Personally, I am tall and healthy, well built, but sensitive and highly strung.  Smell has never played any part in my life as a stimulant of sexual desire, and the mere thought of body odors would have a very decided effect in the opposite direction.  Touch and sight appeal to me strongly, and of the two the former most.

I am convinced, after many years careful thought, that sexual vice and perversion could