auto-erotic character, and I masturbated myself, thus gaining relief to my nerves. 2.  I also found my thoughts tending toward sexual images, and I felt a desire toward my nurse.  I first became conscious of this when I noticed that I experienced an erection during the time that she was washing me.  I mentioned the matter to my doctor, who told me not to worry, and said the symptoms were usual in the circumstances. 3.  When I got up and about I found myself desiring very keenly to have intercourse with my wife.  I can almost say that I felt more sexually excited than I had done for four or five years.  As soon, however, as I had had intercourse with my wife a few times I felt my desire toward her cease. 4.  My thoughts now centered on having a woman to do fellatio, and as soon as I was well enough to go out I got a prostitute to do this.

“Just before I was ill my wife had a child, which was born with more than one abnormality.  No doubt the shock and worry caused by this got me into a low state and predisposed me to my illness.  But the consequences were farther reaching still.  The child underwent an operation, and my wife had to take her away into the country for nearly six weeks, so as to give her better air.  I was left alone in London, for the first time since my marriage.  The worry in connection with the child, and the heavy expense, served to keep me nervously upset after I had apparently recovered physically from the illness.  Once more I found myself thinking about women.  As an additional factor in the situation I became friendly with an old college-chum whom I had not seen much of for many years.  He lived the life of a fashionable young bachelor and was at the time keeping a woman.  The only common interest between us was women.  I found myself reverting to the old condition of rampant lust that had been such a curse to me in my university days.  Some books he lent me had a decided effect.  They gave me erections; and it was on top of the excitement thus engendered that one day I got a woman to do fellatio, as already mentioned.  Moreover, since my illness, I found all my previous energy and ambition had gone.

“I have stated that I was in London alone with two servants.  The housemaid was a young girl; nice looking, with beautiful eyes and a sensual expression.  She had been with us for about a year.  I cannot remember when I first thought of her in a sexual way.  But one evening I suddenly felt a desire for her.  I talked to her; I found my voice trembling; I let my hand, as if by accident, touch hers; she did not withdraw it; and in a second I had kissed her.  She did not resist.  I took her on my knee, and tried to take liberties, which she resisted, and I desisted.

“Next day I kissed her again, and put my hand inside her breasts.  The same evening I took her to an exhibition.  On the way home, in a hansom cab, I made her masturbate me.  This was followed by a feeling of great relief,