semen, etc.  Nor did he take any liberties with me.  I used to notice him urinating; he used to push back the foreskin and I thought his penis large.

“When about 8 years old the nursemaid told me that the boy at her last place had intercourse with his sister.  I thought it disgusting.  About a year later I told the nurse I thought the story of Adam and Eve was not true and that when Eve gave Adam the apple he had intercourse with her and she was punished by having children.  I don’t know if I had thought this out, or if it had been suggested to me by others.  This nurse used often to talk about my ‘tassel.’

    “A family of several brothers went to the same school with me,
    and we used to indulge in dirty stories, chiefly, however, of the
    w.c. type rather than sexual.

    “When I was about 10 I learned much from my father’s coachman.  He
    used to talk about the girls he had had intercourse with, and how
    he would have liked this with my nursemaid.

“A year later I went to a large day school.  I think most of the boys, if not nearly all, were very ignorant and innocent in sexual matters.  The only incident in this connection I can recollect is asking a boy to let me see his penis; he did so.

“During the summer holidays, at a watering place I attended a theatrical performance and fell in love with a girl of about 12 who acted a part.  I bought a photograph of her, which I kept and kissed for several years after.  About the same time I thought rather tenderly of a girl of my own age whose parents knew mine.  I remember feeling that I should like to kiss her.  Once I furtively touched her hair.

“When I was 12 I was sent to a small preparatory boarding school, in the country.  During the holidays I used to talk about sexual things with my father’s footman.  He must have told me a good deal.  I used to have erections.  One evening, when I was in bed and everyone else out (my mother and the children in the country) he came up to my room and tried to put his hand on my penis.  I had been thinking of sexual matters and had an erection.  I resisted, but he persisted, and when he succeeded in touching me I gave in.  He then proceeded to masturbate me.  I sank back, overcome by the pleasant sensation.  He then stopped and I went on myself.  In the meantime he had taken out his penis and masturbated himself before me until the orgasm occurred.  I was disgusted at the sight of his large organ and the semen.  He then left me.  I could hardly sleep from excitement.  I felt I had been initiated into a great and delightful mystery.

“I at once fell into the habit of masturbation.  It was some months before I could produce the orgasm; at about 13 a slight froth came; at about 14 a little semen.  I do not know how frequently I did it—­perhaps once or twice a week.  I used to feel ashamed of