APPENDIX B.

HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT.

The histories here recorded are similar in character to those given in
Appendix B of the previous volume.

    HISTORY I.—­C.D., clergyman, age, 34.  Height about 5 ft. 8 in. 
    Weight, 8st. 8lb.  Complexion, fair.  Physical infirmities, very
    myopic, tendency to consumption.

“My family is of old lineage on both sides.  My parents were normal and fairly healthy; but I consider that heredity, though not vitiated, is somewhat overrefined, and there is a neuropathic tendency, which has appeared in myself and in one or two other members of the family.  As a child, I suffered, though not very frequently, from nocturnal enuresis.  My sexual nature, though normal, has been keenly alive and sensitive as far back as I can remember; and as I look back I discern within myself in early childhood what I now understand to be a decided masochistic or passively algolagnic tendency.  So far as I remember, this manifested itself in me in two aspects; one psychic or sentimental and free from carnality, expressing itself in imaginative visions such as the following:  I used, to imagine myself kneeling before a young and beautiful woman and being sentenced by her to some punishment, and even threatened with death.  At other times I would picture myself as a wounded soldier watched over on his sickbed by queenly women.  These visions always included an imagination of something heroic in my own personality.  No doubt they were the same kind of dreamings as are present in multitudes of imaginative children; they are only of interest in so far as a sexual element was present; and that was algolagnic in character.

“I had a small fund of natural common sense; and my surroundings were not favorable to sentimental imaginings; consequently I believe I began to throw them off at an early age, though the temperament which produced them is still a part of my nature.

“On the carnal side, the sexual instinct was decidedly algolagnic.  Masturbation is one of my earliest recollections; indeed, it was not at first, so far as I remember, associated with any sexual ideas at all; but began as a reflex animal act.  I do not remember its first occurrence.  It soon, however, became associated in my mind with algolagnic excitement, giving rise to reveries which took the ordinary form of imagining oneself stripped and whipped, etc., by persons of the opposite sex.  The dramatis personae in my own algolagnic reveries were elderly women; somewhat strangely, I did not associate physical sexuality at this period with young and attractive women.  If scientific light on these matters were generally available in the practical bringing up of children, persons in charge of young children might refrain from exciting an algolagnic tendency or doing anything calculated to awake sexual emotions prematurely.