girls (other than the one above mentioned) and a boy, the conversation was lascivious in the extreme, though words never proceeded to deeds as between the boys and the girls.  He was soon, however, about his fifteenth year, so far as he can remember, initiated into the practice of masturbation, first, sleeping with his boy cousin, the two used to play at ’husband and wife,’ and then, more directly, a neighbor, a heavy, sensual type of boy, took him aside one day and drawing out his own penis asked him ‘if he knew how to make some buttermilk.’  Out of curiosity at first, and to obtain the new and voluptuous sensation afterward, he began assiduously to practise this vice, which, as he afterward found out, was very common, if not universal about him.  That it was morally reprehensible he had not at that time the ghost of a notion; he considered that it belonged to the category of the ‘dirty’ only.  His father quite neglected this development, believing, I suppose, in the superstition of the ‘innocence of childhood.’

“This practice of masturbation went on assiduously to his sixteenth year, when its true nature and danger were revealed to him by a good clergyman who prepared him for confirmation.  He had at this time gone far, in both solitary vice and vice ‘a deux,’ with his male cousin, with whom he practised even ‘fellatio’ and ‘intromissio in anum.’  But now he began to struggle against it and made some headway, but never entirely shook it off before his marriage at 26, so deeply rooted was the hold it had on him.  Especially at the time between sleeping and waking, or while lying sleepless at night—­when the monks prayed ’ne polluantur corpora’—­did its attacks come insidiously upon him.  He would struggle for weeks and then would come a relapse.  On one occasion he slept with a young uncle who amused himself, thinking he was asleep, by playing with his penis until he had an emission.  A.N. hailed the occasion with keen joy—­he caustically argued that he experienced the pleasure without being culpable in its production!  Then on ‘coming to himself’ he would agonize over his vice, remembering, for example, that, while he had rejoiced in what had been done, the very cousin who some time before used to share his sin was genuinely annoyed at the same uncle’s attentions when it was he who suffered them.

“Looking back over the whole period of his youth and adolescence, he can trace the psychological effect of what was going on secretly, in his relations to girls and women.  In a word, these relations were sentimental only.  He often imagined himself in love; but it was imagination only.  He was in love with a wraith, not a girl of flesh and blood.  He hesitated to regard in any sexual way any girl of whom he had a high opinion; sexual desire and ‘love’ seemed for him to inhabit different worlds and that it would be a pollution to bring them together.  In hours of relaxation from the very hard intellectual