surprised to learn that he was not alone in the regiment.  I afterward fell in love with his sister, and he married and had children.  He was bisexual in his inclinations, but was really in love with me for a short time.

“I had little to do with professionals until I went to South Africa, and though I was fond of ladies’ society, and liked by ladies, I looked upon them as something apart, especially married women, and never attempted to take liberties with them; though I used to with shopgirls, etc., in my cramming days, and had often been in love.  In South Africa I first began really to enjoy coitus, and on going to India continued to do so; in fact, I thought sexually of nothing else and rarely masturbated,—­perhaps once in three weeks.  I would go to brothels wherever they were available, Durban, Cape Town, Colombo, Calcutta, Bombay, and at one time preferred black women to white.  I used to have horrible orgies with my brother-officers, and on one occasion I ordered six women to my bungalow in order to celebrate my birthday, and made a present of them to five of my friends after dinner.  During this period, and until I went home, I rarely spoke to a lady, the chief exception being No. 1, a brother-officer’s wife, with whom I began to be in love.

“Shortly after the South African War I fell violently in love with a young brother-officer, ‘Z.’  It amounted to a passion and I was forced to make overtures to him.  He did not understand, being ignorant of homosexuality and quite virile, and would have nothing to do with me, though he was very nice about it.  This lasted for about a year, and then, thinking no doubt that he had better stop it, as I was really making myself very ridiculous and was mad with love, he threw me up altogether.  I was intensely miserable for some time, and then I recovered and we made it up, and are now firm friends.  I still want to kiss and stroke him when I see him naked, but would do nothing more.  I went home by way of Japan after several years’ absence from home, taking the women of the Eastern ports as I went, until I contracted gonorrhea in the Tokio Yoshiwara.  I could not get rid of it, and arrived home in that state, having been deprived of the pleasure of trying several new races on the way in consequence.  In England I rushed into a society which I had quit on such different terms, and it received me with open arms.  I very soon began a flirtation with a married woman, and she completed my education in kissing which had been begun by the Japanese harlots.  I was just coming to the point with this woman when I met No. 1 again, and my love for her was at once renewed.  I told her so, but I knew that she did not return it.  I then became attracted to No. 2, a girl older than myself, whom I had known all my life.  I kissed her and fondled her breasts; but she would not allow anything else, until one night, when in the train with her, I got my hand down farther than she intended.