reading is religion, science, and philosophy, with an occasional standard novel, or a modern novel of the ‘improper’ type by way of relaxation.  I became a convinced and militant rationalist about five years ago, but have been an unbeliever since I left school.  I was anemic and threatened with bowel complaint at the age of 7, and was in consequence taken abroad for my health.  I am now strong and vigorous, with great powers of endurance, and enjoy all forms of sport and exercise, particularly hunting, pig-sticking, and polo.  I drink a lot, and am never fitter than when eating, drinking, and taking exercise in what most people would call excess.  It takes more alcohol than I can hold to make me drunk when in England; but not so in the East.  I have been told that I am very good-looking.

“When I was about 4 or 5 I was constantly chaffed by my older companions about putting my hand down my trousers and playing with my privates.  I don’t remember getting an erection, nor at what age this first occurred with me.  At one time my brother and I used to play about with my sister’s underclothing, and took great pleasure in it, but we never saw her genitals.  She told us that on carefully examining herself one day she was glad to find that she had a small penis like boys had—­doubtless the clitoris.  When in France, at the age of 8 to 10, I began to notice the sexual parts of animals, and was very keen to know what mares kept between their hind legs.  Later on I took great pleasure with another boy in feeling the teats of a she-ass, and, by myself, the penis of a donkey, as I had seen the French grooms do; but I took no interest in my own penis.  I used to put my finger as far up the anus as it would go, and got a vague satisfaction from it.  I went to a small private school at the age of 11, having been previously told by my mother of the manner of birth of men and animals, of which I was quite ignorant till then.  She made no mention of the part taken by the father, and I never thought about it.  Even then I was left with the impression that one was born through the navel.  I was initiated at school, and used to handle the penis of the boy who told me.  On several occasions I did fellatio for him, and liked it, but he never offered to do the same for me, and I don’t think he got much satisfaction out of it.  Soon after this I became conscious of pleasurable sensations when lying on my stomach with an erection, and used occasionally to gratify myself that way, caring little for the school tradition that it was ‘wicked’ and bad for one.  On one occasion, when talking at night with another boy, we compared our organs, both in erection, and I then for the first time thought of trying what I had heard vaguely mentioned, viz., two boys playing at man and woman.  I lay on him with my penis on his stomach and almost at once had an orgasm with emission, and experienced acute pleasure, though both he and I supposed that I had