She always got on well with men, and men were attracted to her.  She was direct and sincere, without undue modesty.  But she never allowed men to touch her or kiss her.  She was a good dancer, and fond of dancing, but denies that it ever led to sexual feelings.  She never felt any sexual attraction for a man until, at the age of 20, she fell in love with her future husband five years or more before marriage.

At this period she began to feel vague discomfort, which she knew to be localized near her sexual organs.  She was aware, in a dim way, that it was connected with her love, and was of a sexual nature.  But there was no definite idea of sexual intercourse.  She felt nervous and depressed.  If she had been asked to state what would relieve her, she could only have said B.’s presence and tenderness.  A few days before he declared his love she experienced the nearest approach to sexual feeling she had ever had.  It was summer and, with B. and some of her family, she had gone on a little expedition.  One evening, in the train after a day’s excursion, B. took her hand (unperceived by the others) and held it for some time.  This aroused the strongest emotions in her; she closed her eyes, and, though she was not at the time aware that her sensations were localized in her sexual organs, she thinks, in the light of subsequent knowledge, that she then experienced the orgasm.

During the engagement, which lasted between two and three years, circumstances prevented frequent meetings.  B. would kiss her, suck her nipples, which became erect, and lie on her.  She allowed him to take these liberties, feeling that if she refused him all satisfaction he might have relations with other women.  She still felt no definite desire for contact of the sexual organs.  She longed rather to be embraced and kissed, and to lie in her lover’s arms all night.  A few months before marriage, however, she masturbated occasionally, just before or just after menstruation, imagining, while doing it, that she was in her lover’s arms.  The act was usually followed by a sick feeling.  Just before marriage she underwent an operation for the relief of the dysmenorrhea.  She was somewhat shocked and sickened by the experiences of the wedding night.  It seemed to her that her husband approached her with the violence of an animal, and there was some difficulty in effecting entrance.  Coitus, though incomplete, took place some seven times on this first night.  The bleeding from rupture of the hymen continued, so that for two days she had to wear a towel.  For two months subsequently there was great pain during intercourse, although she suppressed the indications of this.

There were several children born of the marriage and for some years she lived happily, on the whole, with her husband, notwithstanding various hardships and difficulties and some incompatibility of temper.

As regards her sexual feelings she considers,