an emission of sticky matter.  Afterward he rubbed me again, saying that if I let him do it long enough he would produce the same substance from me.  This he failed to do, however, though he rubbed me long and frequently, on that and many other occasions.  I was very disappointed at not being able to have an emission, and on every occasion that offered I endeavored to excite myself to the extent of compassing this.  I used to ask to go out of school two or three times a day, and retired to the closet, where I practised on myself most diligently, but to no purpose, at that time, though I began to have pleasurable emotions in the act.

“When I went home for the holidays I took a great interest in one of my father’s maids, whose legs I felt as she ran upstairs one day.  I was in great fear that she would complain of what I had done, but I was delighted to find that she did nothing of the sort; on the contrary, she took to kissing and fondling me, calling me her sweetheart and saying that I was a forward boy.  This encouraged me greatly, and I was not long in getting to more intimate relations with her.  She called me into her room one day when we were alone in the house, she being in a half-dressed condition, and put me on the bed and laid herself on me, kissing me passionately on the mouth.  She next unbuttoned my trousers and fondled and kissed my member, and directed my hand to her privates.  I became very much excited and trembled violently, but was able to do for her what she wanted in the way of masturbation until she became wet.  After this we had many meetings in which we embraced and she let me introduce my member until she had satisfied herself, though I was too young to have an emission.

“On return to school I practised mutual masturbation with several of my schoolfellows, and finally, at the age of 14 years, had my first real emission.  I was greatly pleased thereat, and, with this and the growth of hair which began to show on my pubis, began to feel myself quite a man.  I loved lying in the arms of another boy, pressing against his body, and fondling his person and being fondled by him in return.  We always finished up with mutual masturbation.  We never indulged in any unnatural connections.

“After leaving school I had no opportunity of indulging in relations with my own sex, and, indeed, did not wish for such, as I became a slave to the charms of the other sex, and passed most of my time in either enjoying, or planning to enjoy, love passages with them.

“The sight of a woman’s limbs or bust, especially if partly hidden by pretty underclothing, and the more so if seen by stealth, was sufficient to give a lustful feeling and a violent erection, accompanied by palpitation of the heart and throbbing in the head.

“I had frequent coitus at the age of 17, as well as masturbating regularly.  I liked to perform masturbation on a girl, even more