HISTORY V.—­“My maternal grandfather” (writes the subject of this history) “was a small farmer who kept a few beagles and greyhounds for hare-hunting.  He had three daughters, one of whom became my mother.  One of his sporting companions, a doctor of profligate habits and a drunkard, seduced my mother at the age of 20.  When her condition was discovered she had to flee from the violence of her father, and I was born some distance from her home.  After my grandfather’s death I was reared by my grandmother, and saw nothing of my mother until I was nearly 16; she had left the country in shame and disgrace.

“I believe that in my heredity the transmission comes chiefly from my mother, who is now 58 years old.  Although her life has been blameless in every particular since her youthful indiscretion, she has never got over it.  I feel in my character a reflection of her overstrung condition during pregnancy.

“I can distinctly remember from the age of 9 years, and am sure that I had no sexual feelings before the age of 13, though always in the company of girls.  I had many boyish passions for girls, always older than myself, but these were never accompanied by sexual desires.  I deified all my sweethearts, and was satisfied if I got a flower, a handkerchief, or even a shred of clothing of my inamorata for the time being.  These things gave me a strange idealistic emotion, but caused no sexual desire or erection.

“At 13 a 26-year-old sister of a boy companion once sat down on a sheaf of corn so as to expose the mons veneris and enticed me to copulate.  There was slight erection, and after the act had been continued some time a pleasurable sensation of ejaculation, but without true emission.  I had frequent relations with this woman after that.

“About this time the farm servant of a neighbor taught me masturbation.  The mistress of the farm, a thin, willowy, dark woman, the mother of several children, treated me with such familiarity as once to urinate in my presence, so that I saw her very hirsute mons veneris.  From that moment I conceived a great passion for her, and used to tremble as soon as I saw her.  I had become well developed and virile, but, though I think she was a lustful woman, I never ventured to touch her.  I found an extreme ecstasy in masturbating while gazing upon some article of her clothing.  This gave me much greater sexual pleasure than actual connection with the ever-willing sister of my schoolfellow.  I think I loved the married woman best because the mons veneris was more covered with hair.

“This has always had a peculiar attraction for me.  Later, when accosted by prostitutes, I never would go with them unless I was assured the mons veneris was very hirsute.  Never much addicted to masturbation, I derived no great enjoyment therefrom unless I had hair or part of the clothing of the woman with whom I was indulging in psychic coitus.

    “At 16 I left school and went to a large city to learn a
    business.  At this time the sexual appetite was very strong.  I
    frequently had intercourse with three women in one evening.