should undress her before finding fault with her.  A woman’s dress symbolizes to her the protection civilization affords to the weak and gives her a fictitious strength.  Naked, she is face to face with primitive conditions, her weakness opposed to the man’s power.  Besides, the sense of shame at being naked under the eyes of a man who regarded her with displeasure would extend itself to her offense and give him a distinct, though perhaps unfair, advantage.  I used the bristle side of a brush to chastise her with, as suggesting the greatest amount of severity with the least possible pain.  In fact, my idea was to produce the maximum of emotion with the minimum of actual discomfort.

“You must not, however, suppose that at the time I reasoned about it at all in this way.  I was very fond of her, and honestly believed I was doing it for her good.  Had I realized then, as I do now, that my sole aim and object was physical pleasure, I believe my pleasure would have ceased; in any case I should not have felt justified in so treating her.  Do I at all persuade you that my pleasure was a reflection of hers?  That it was, I think, is clear from the fact that I only obtained it when she was willing to submit.  Any real resistance or signs that I was overpassing the boundary of pleasure in her and urging on pain without excitement caused me to desist and my own pleasure to cease.

“I disclaim all altruism in my dealings with my sister.  What occurs appears to me to be this:  A situation appeals to one in imagination and one at once desires to transfer it to the realms of fact, being one’s self one of the principal actors.  If it is the passive side which appeals to one, one would prefer to be passive; but if that is not obtainable then one takes the active part as next best.  In either case, however, it is the realization of the imagined situation that gives the pleasure, not the other person’s pleasure as such, although his or her supposed pleasure creates the situation.  If I were a man it would afford me great delight to hold a woman over a precipice, even if she disliked it.  The idea appeals to me so strongly that I could not help imagining her pleasure, though I might know she got none, and even though she made every demonstration of fear and dislike of it.  The situation so often imagined would have become a fact.  It seems to me I have to say a thing is and is not in the same breath, but the confusion is only in the words.

“Let me give you another example:  I have a tame pigeon which has a great affection for me.  It sits on my shoulder and squats down with its wings out as birds do when courting, pecking me to make me take notice of it, and flickering its wings.  I like to hold it so that it can’t move its wings, because I imagine this increases its excitement.  If it struggles, or seems to dislike my holding it, I let it go.

“In an early engagement (afterward