that it was impossible to obtain physical satisfaction through the woman I loved.  I came to this conclusion because of the bad physical effects of contact.  My sexual organs became highly sensitive and inflamed and I suffered pain from the inflammation and resulting leucorrhea.  Should I allow myself to indulge in caresses this condition would return.  My friend, fortunately, though very affectionate and demonstrative toward me, has very little sexual passion.  The idea that our relationship is based upon it is very repugnant to her.  I was at one time, a few years since, much discouraged and almost hopeless of being able to overcome my appetite, and I decided that we could not associate unless I succeeded.  At present, with help, I have very largely succeeded in living with my friend on a basis of normal, though affectionate and tender, companionship.  I have been helped more, and have learned more, through this companionship, than through anything else.  The keen pleasure that I have felt when in responsive contact I never experienced in masturbation.  So far as I remember it never took place till I was well along in my ’teens and was never an habitual practice, except the first summer I was separated from a school friend whom I loved.  Thoughts of her aroused feelings which I attempted to satisfy in this way, but the entire sensuality of the act soon led me to refrain and to see that that was not what I wanted.

“A peculiar incident that might have some significance occurred to me about five years ago.  I was sitting in a small room where a seminar was being conducted.  The leader of the discussion was a man about 50, whom I looked up to on account of his attainments and respected as a man, though I knew him socially very slightly.  I had lost a night’s sleep from toothache and was feeling nervous.  I was giving my entire attention to the subject in hand, when suddenly I felt a very strong physical compulsion toward that man.  I did not know what I was going to do, but I felt on the point of losing all control of myself.  I was afraid to leave, for fear the slightest movement would throw me into a panic.  The attraction was entirely physical and like nothing I had felt before.  And I had a strange feeling that its cause was in the man himself; that he was willing it; I was like a spectator.  It was some moments before the assemblage broke up, when my ‘possession’ completely disappeared and never recurred.

“Regarding dreams, I will say that not until the past year or two have I been conscious of having clear-cut dreams with definite happenings.  They seemed usually to leave only vague impressions, such as a feeling that I had been riding horseback, or trying to perform some hard task.  Sexual dreams I do not recall having had for several years, except that occasionally I am awakened by a feeling of uncomfortable sexual desire, which seems usually caused by a need to urinate.  Between the ages of 17 and 22, approximately,