sensations; if the cousin only touched her neck,
a thrill went through her body which she now regards
as sexual. Again, at 17, she had an overwhelming,
passionate fascination for a schoolfellow, a pretty,
commonplace girl, whom she idealized and etherealized
to an extravagant extent. This passion was
so violent that her health was, to some extent, impaired;
but it was purely unselfish, and there was nothing
sexual in it. On leaving school at the age
of 19 she met a girl of about the same age as
herself, very womanly, but not much attracted
to men. This girl became very much attached to
her, and sought to gain her love. After some
time Miss H. was attracted by this love, partly
from the sense of power it gave her, and an intimate
relation grew up. This relation became vaguely
physical, Miss H. taking the initiative, but her
friend desiring such relations and taking extreme
pleasure in them; they used to touch and kiss
each other tenderly (especially on the mons veneris),
with equal ardor. They each experienced a
strong pleasurable feeling in doing this, and
sexual erethism, but no orgasm, and it does not
appear that this ever occurred. Their general
behavior to each other was that of lovers, but
they endeavored, as far as possible, to hide this
fact from the world. This relation lasted for
several years, and would have continued, had not Miss
H.’s friend, from religious and moral scruples,
put an end to the physical relationship.
Miss H. had been very well and happy during this
relationship; the interference with it seems to have
exerted a disturbing influence, and also to have
aroused her sexual desires, though she was still
scarcely conscious of their real nature.
Soon afterward another girl of exceedingly voluptuous type made love to Miss H., to which the latter yielded, giving way to her feelings as well as to her love of domination. She was afterward ashamed of this episode, though the physical element in it had remained vague and indefinite. Her remorse was so great that when her friend, repenting her scruples, implored her to let their relationship be on the same footing as of old, Miss H., in her return, resisted every effort to restore the physical relation. She kept to this resolution for some years, and sought to divert her thoughts into intellectual channels. When she again formed an intimate relationship it was with a congenial friend, and lasted for several years.
She has never masturbated. Occasionally, but very rarely, she has had dreams of riding accompanied by pleasurable sexual emotions (she cannot recall any actual experience to suggest this, though fond of riding). She has never had any kind of sexual dreams about a man; of late years she has occasionally had erotic dreams about women.
Her feeling toward men is friendly, but she has never had sexual attraction toward a man. She likes them as good comrades, as men like each other. She enjoys the society of