my bed.  To my surprise he took hold of my penis and rubbed it for a time, when a most pleasant feeling seized me and increased until a discharge came out of my organ; he then asked me to do the same to him.  We frequently repeated the process during the following month; I was quite unaware of any harm resulting.

“The same year I went to school, but none of my schoolmates for some time even suggested such actions until a friend staying with us for the holidays one day in the bathroom repeated the process and pressed his penis between my thighs, when a similar discharge took place.  I shortly found out that several of my school friends and male cousins had the same desires, and an elder brother of my first introducer into sexuality repeatedly spent the night with me, when we would amuse ourselves in a similar way.

“A little later, my mother being away from home, I shared my father’s bed and he took my penis in his hand and pulled my foreskin back.  I in return took hold of his and found that he had an erection.  I proceeded to rub him when he stopped me and told me that I should not do so, that when I was a little older I should love a woman to do it and that if I did not rub myself and allow other boys to do so, I would enjoy myself much more.  I am quite certain that my father was inverted, as he frequently, if sleeping with me, used to press my naked body against his and he always had a strong erection.  On one occasion he rubbed me until I had a discharge and then, turning over on his back, made me take his penis in my hand and rub him for a few minutes.  I used to jest frequently with my father, as from my seventeenth year my penis was larger than his.  I will return to my father a little later.  When I was 17 a college friend shared my bed, and when undressing he said that he envied me my penis being so much larger than his; after getting into bed, he asked me to turn on my side and I found that he was attempting pedicatio.  I was astonished at his doing so when he informed me that next to a woman this process gave most pleasure.  However, nothing resulted and this is the only experience of pedicatio that I have ever had.

“When I was 18 one evening a college chum introduced me to a woman and she was the first I ever had connection with.  We went behind some rocks and she took hold of my penis and pressed it into her body, lying against me.

“My father evidently suspected me when I came home, and a few days afterward told me that it was very dangerous to have anything to do with women, that I should wait until I was older, that when a boy became a man he ought to have a woman occasionally, and that if I ever had a nasty disease I should promptly tell him so that I could be properly cured.

“At college I found several chums who were fond of sharing my bed and indulging in mutual masturbation, pressing our bodies together