apartments; on this occasion we were abroad in
a country place, and were compelled to put up
with what we could get. We not only had to
share a room, but a bed. I was not surprised at
his throwing his arm over me, as I knew he was
extraordinarily attached to me, and I had always
felt a brute for not returning his affection so
warmly. But I was surprised when later I awoke
to find him occupied in fellatio and endeavoring
to obtain my response. Had it been anyone
else I should have resented strongly such a liberty,
and our acquaintance would have ended, but I cared
for him too well, though never very demonstrative.
This episode led to discussion of the topic.
He told me that his sexual strength was great,
that he had tested it in many ways, and that it
was essential to his well-being that he should have
satisfaction in some way. He loathed prostitution
and considered it degrading; he felt physically
attracted to some women and intellectually to
others, but the two elements were never combined,
and though he had been intimate with a few he felt
that it was not right to them, as he could not
marry them because he held too high an ideal of
marriage. He had always felt attracted to
his own sex, and had kept up a Platonic friendship
with a college chum, X (to whom I knew he was
passionately attached), for some years. Both
considered it perfectly moral, and both, felt
better for it. Both abhor pedicatio.
X., however, would never discuss the subject,
and seemed half-ashamed of it. A., on the
other hand, though showing a great self-respect in
all things else, feels no shame, though he says
he would never discuss it except with close friends
or if asked for private advice.
“A. is the elder child of a military officer. His parents were 21 and 19, respectively, at the time of his birth. Both parents are healthy, and the two children (both boys) have good constitutions, though the elder has the better. He is of medium height and slender limbs, proud carriage, handsome and intellectual face (classic Greek type), excellent complexion, charming manners, and good temper. The penis is large, the foreskin very short. He is fond of philosophy, natural science, history, and literature. He is reflective and patient rather than smart, but strong-willed and very active when roused, never resting till he has accomplished what he wants, even if this takes years. He sings excellently, and is fond of cycling, boating, swimming, and mountain-climbing. He enjoys excellent health, and has never had a day’s illness since he was 12 years of age. He says the only time he cannot sleep has been when in bed with some one who could not or would not satisfy him. He requires satisfaction at least once a week, twice or thrice in the hot season. He never smokes, nor drinks beer or spirits. He is still single, but believes that marriage would meet all his needs.
“X. is also an oldest child, of young and healthy parents (between 21 and 24 at