He formed a close alliance with a youth of 19.  This liaison was largely sentimental, and marked by a kind of etherealized sensuality.  It involved no sexual acts beyond kissing, naked contact, and rare involuntary emissions.  About the age of 36 he began freely to follow homosexual inclinations.  After this he rapidly recovered his health.  The neurotic disturbances subsided.

He has always loved men younger than himself.  At about the age of 27 he had begun to admire young soldiers.  Since he yielded freely to his inclinations the men he has sought are invariably persons of a lower social rank than his own.  He carried on one liaison continuously for twelve years; it began without passion on the friend’s side, but gradually grew to nearly equal strength on both sides.  He is not attracted by uniforms, but seeks some uncontaminated child of nature.

The methods of satisfaction have varied with the phases of his passion.  At first they were romantic and Platonic, when a hand-touch, a rare kiss, or mere presence sufficed.  In the second period sleeping side by side, inspection of the naked body of the loved man, embracements, and occasional emissions after prolonged contact.  In the third period the gratification became more frankly sensual.  It took every shape:  mutual masturbation, intercrural coitus, fellatio, irrumatio, and occasionally active pedicatio; always according to the inclination or concession of the beloved male.

He himself always plays the active, masculine part.  He never yields himself to the other, and he asserts that he never has the joy of finding himself desired with ardor equal to his own.  He does not shrink from passive pedicatio; but it is never demanded of him.  Coitus with males, as above described, always seems to him healthy and natural; it leaves a deep sense of well-being, and has cemented durable friendships.  He has always sought to form permanent ties with the men whom he has adored so excessively.

    He is of medium height, not robust, but with great nervous
    energy, with strong power of will and self-control, able to
    resist fatigue and changes of external circumstances.

In boyhood he had no liking for female occupations, or for the society of girls, preferring study and solitude.  He avoided games and the noisy occupations of boys, but was only non-masculine in his indifference to sport, was never feminine in dress or habit.  He never succeeded in his attempts to whistle.  He is a great smoker, and has at times drunk much.  He likes riding, skating, and climbing, but is a poor horseman, and is clumsy with his hands.  He has no capacity for the fine arts and music, though much interested in them, and is a prolific author.

He has suffered extremely throughout life, owing to his sense of the difference between himself and normal human beings.  No pleasure