uncle with whom the same thing was practised.
Later on he practised masturbation with every
boy or man with whom he was on terms of intimacy;
to have been in bed with anyone without anything
of the sort taking place would have made sleep impossible,
and rendered him utterly wretched. His erotic
dreams at first were concerned with women, but
more recently they are usually of young men, and
very rarely of women. He is mostly indifferent
to women, as also they have always been to him.
Although good-looking, strong, and masculine, he
has never known a woman to be in love with him.
When about the age of 18 he imagined he was in
love with a girl; and he had often, between the
ages of 20 to 30, cohabited with prostitutes.
He remembers on one occasion, many years ago,
having connection with a woman seven or eight
times in one night, and then having to masturbate
at noon the next day. He is unmarried, and
thinks it is unlikely that he ever will marry,
but he adds that if a healthy, handsome, and intelligent
woman fell in love with him he might change his mind,
as it would be lonely to be old and alone, and he would
like to have children.
He is never attracted to men older than himself, and prefers youths between the ages of 18 and 25. They may be of any class, but he does not like common people, and is not attached to uniforms or liveries. The requisite attractions are an intelligent eye, a voluptuous mouth, and “intelligent teeth.” “If Alcibiades himself tried to woo me,” he says, “and had bad teeth, his labor would be in vain.” He has sometimes been the active participant in pedicatio, and has tried the passive role out of curiosity, but prefers fellatio.
He does not consider that he is doing anything wrong, and regards his acts as quite natural. His only regret is the absorbing nature of his passions, which obtrude themselves in season and out of season, seldom or never leaving him quiet, and sometimes making his life a hell. Yet he doubts whether he would change himself, even if he had the power.
HISTORY XVII.—Age 25; is employed in an ordinary workshop, and lives in the back alley of a large town in which he was born and bred. Fair, slight, and refined in appearance. The sexual organs are normal and well developed, and the sexual passions strong. His mother is a big masculine woman, and he is much attached to her. Father is slight and weakly. He has seven brothers and one sister. Homosexual desires began at an early age, though he does not seem to have come under any perverse influences. He is not inclined to masturbation. Erotic dreams are always of males. He declares he never cared for any woman except his mother, and that he could not endure to sleep with a woman.
He says he generally falls in love with a man at first sight—as a rule, some one older than himself and of higher class—and longs to sleep and be with him. In one case