many cigarettes and cannot get on without them.  Though his manners are very slightly if at all feminine, he acknowledges many feminine ways.  He is fond of jewelry, until lately always wore a bangle, and likes women’s rings; he is very particular about fine ties, and uses very delicate women’s handkerchiefs.  He has always had a taste for music, and sings.  He has a special predilection for green; it is the predominant color in the decoration of his room, and everything green appeals to him.  He finds that the love of green (and also of violet and purple) is very widespread among his inverted friends.

HISTORY XIII.—­Artist, aged 34.  “The earliest sex impression that I am conscious of,” he writes, “is at the age of 9 or 10 falling in love with a handsome boy who must have been about two years my senior.  I do not recollect ever having spoken to him, but my desire, so far as I can recall, was that he should seize hold of and handle me.  I have a distinct impression yet of how pleasurable even physical pain or cruelty would have been at his hands. (I have noticed that in young children it is often difficult to differentiate the sexual emotions from what in the grown up would be definite cruelty.)

“It must have been at about this time that I discovered—­entirely by myself—­the act of masturbation.  The process grew up quite naturally, though I cannot but think that the cooped-up life in a London street and a London school, with want of physical exercise, as well as want of landscape, color, and beautiful form, had much to do with it.  The tone of the school I was at was singularly clean, but I question whether the vaunted cleanliness of tone of day-schools can compensate for the open life and large discipline of an English public school.

“How far the rather frequent masturbation between the ages of 10 and 13 may have had to do with weakly health I do not know, but when I was 12 I was taken by my mother to a famous doctor.  He made no inquiries of a sexual nature, but he advised that I should be sent away from London.  He had a sentimental horror of violent games, etc., for boys, and put aside various suggested public schools.  Finally I was sent to a private school at the seaside.

“The private school was clean and wholesome.  The plunge into the sexual cocytus of the great public school that followed was effectually sudden.  In my day ——­ was a perfect stew of uncleanness.  There was plenty of incontinence, not much cruelty, no end of dirty conversation, and a great deal of genuine affection, even to heroism, shown among the boys in their relations to one another.  All these things were treated by masters and boys alike as more or less unholy, with the result that they were either sought after or flung aside, according to the sexual or emotional instinct of each.  No attempt was made at discrimination.  A kiss was as unclean as the act of fellatio,