established in the Hall frightened her. She had
felt since she came to Billingsfield that from the
very first she had put herself upon a footing of safety
by telling her story to the vicar. But the vicar
would, not without her permission repeat that story
to Mr. Juxon. Was she herself called upon to do
so? She was a very sensitive woman, and her impressionable
nature had been strongly affected by what she had
suffered. An almost morbid fear of seeming to
make false pretences possessed her. She was more
than thirty years of age, it is true, but she saw
plainly enough in her glass that she was more than
passably good-looking still. There were one or
two grey threads in her brown waving hair and she
took no trouble to remove them; no one ever noticed
them. There were one or two lines, very faint
lines, in her forehead; no one ever saw them.
She could hardly see them herself. Supposing—why
should she not suppose it?—supposing Mr.
Juxon were to take a fancy to her, as a lone bachelor
of forty and odd might easily take a fancy to a pretty
woman who was his tenant and lived at his gate, what
should she do? He was an honest man, and she was
a conscientious woman; she could not deceive him,
if it came to that. She would have to tell him
the whole truth. As she thought of it, she turned
pale and trembled. And yet she had liked his
face, she had told him he might call at the cottage,
and her woman’s instinct foresaw that she was
to see him often. It was not vanity which made
her think that the squire might grow to like her too
much. She had had experiences in her life and
she knew that she was attractive; the very fear she
had felt for the last two years lest she should be
thrown into the society of men who might be attracted
by her, increased her apprehension tenfold. She
could not look forward with indifference to the expected
visit, for the novelty of seeing any one besides the
vicar and his wife was too great; she could not refuse
to see the squire, for he would come again and again
until she received him; and yet, she could not get
rid of the idea that there was danger in seeing him.
Call it as one may, that woman’s instinct of
peril is rarely at fault.
In the late twilight of the June evening Mrs. Goddard
and Eleanor waited home together by the broad road
which led towards the park gate.
“Don’t you think Mr. Juxon is very kind,
mamma?” asked the child.
“Yes, darling, I have no doubt he is. It
was very good of him to ask you to go to the Hall.”
“And he called me Miss Goddard,” said
Eleanor. “I wonder whether he will always
call me Miss Goddard.”
“He did not know your name was Nellie,”
explained her mother.
“Oh, I wish nobody knew, mamma. It was
so nice. When shall I be grown up, mamma?”
“Soon, my child—too soon,”
said Mrs. Goddard with a sigh. Nellie looked
at her mother and was silent for a minute.
“Mamma, do you like Mr. Juxon?” she asked
presently.