utmost were slipping by, and nights which were to have crowned the days, nights of incalculable possibilities, were being stolen from her by women for whom she had no great affection.  At first she had been courageous, but the strain of prolonged uncertainty was telling on her, and her nervous condition did not improve her larynx.  Every morning Miles Creedon looked down her throat, only to put her off with evasions, to pronounce improvement that apparently never got her anywhere, to say that tomorrow he might be able to promise something definite.

Her illness, of course, gave rise to rumours—­rumours that she had lost her voice, that at some time last summer she must have lost her discretion.  Kitty herself was frightened by the way in which this cold hung on.  She had had many sharp illnesses in her life, but always, before this, she had rallied quickly.  Was she beginning to lose her resiliency?  Was she, by any cursed chance, facing a bleak time when she would have to cherish herself?  She protested, as she wandered about her sunny, many-windowed rooms on the tenth floor, that if she was going to have to live frugally, she wouldn’t live at all.  She wouldn’t live on any terms but the very generous ones she had always known.  She wasn’t going to hoard her vitality.  It must be there when she wanted it, be ready for any strain she chose to put upon it, let her play fast and loose with it; and then, if necessary, she would be ill for a while and pay the piper.  But be systematically prudent and parsimonious she would not.

When she attempted to deliver all this to Doctor Creedon, he merely put his finger on her lips and said they would discuss these things when she could talk without injuring her throat.  He allowed her to see no one except the Director of the Opera, who did not shine in conversation and was not apt to set Kitty going.  The Director was a glum fellow, indeed, but during this calamitous time he had tried to be soothing, and he agreed with Creedon that she must not risk a premature appearance.  Kitty was tormented by a suspicion that he was secretly backing the little Spanish woman who had sung many of her parts since she had been ill.  He furthered the girl’s interests because his wife had a very special consideration for her, and Madame had that consideration because—­But that was too long and too dreary a story to follow out in one’s mind.  Kitty felt a tonsilitis disgust for opera-house politics, which, when she was in health, she rather enjoyed, being no mean strategist herself.  The worst of being ill was that it made so many things and people look base.

She was always afraid of being disillusioned.  She wished to believe that everything for sale in Vanity Fair was worth the advertised price.  When she ceased to believe in these delights, she told herself, her pulling power would decline and she would go to pieces.  In some way the chill of her disillusionment would quiver through the long, black line which reached from the box-office down to Seventh Avenue on nights when she sang.  They shivered there in the rain and cold, all those people, because they loved to believe in her inextinguishable zest.  She was no prouder of what she drew in the boxes than she was of that long, oscillating tail; little fellows in thin coats, Italians, Frenchmen, South-Americans, Japanese.