I had known each of her former husbands.  The first one, Charley Wilton, Horace’s father, was my cousin.  He was organist in a church in Columbus, and Cressida married him when she was nineteen.  He died of tuberculosis two years after Horace was born.  Cressida nursed him through a long illness and made the living besides.  Her courage during the three years of her first marriage was fine enough to foreshadow her future to any discerning eye, and it had made me feel that she deserved any number of chances at marital happiness.  There had, of course, been a particular reason for each subsequent experiment, and a sufficiently alluring promise of success.  Her motives, in the case of Jerome Brown, seemed to me more vague and less convincing than those which she had explained to me on former occasions.

“It’s nothing hasty,” she assured me.  “It’s been coming on for several years.  He has never pushed me, but he was always there—­some one to count on.  Even when I used to meet him at the Whitings, while I was still singing at the Metropolitan, I always felt that he was different from the others; that if I were in straits of any kind, I could call on him.  You can’t know what that feeling means to me, Carrie.  If you look back, you’ll see it’s something I’ve never had.”

I admitted that, in so far as I knew, she had never been much addicted to leaning on people.

“I’ve never had any one to lean on,” she said with a short laugh.  Then she went on, quite seriously:  “Somehow, my relations with people always become business relations in the end.  I suppose it’s because,—­except for a sort of professional personality, which I’ve had to get, just as I’ve had to get so many other things,—­I’ve not very much that’s personal to give people.  I’ve had to give too much else.  I’ve had to try too hard for people who wouldn’t try at all.”

“Which,” I put in firmly, “has done them no good, and has robbed the people who really cared about you.”

“By making me grubby, you mean?”

“By making you anxious and distracted so much of the time; empty.”

She nodded mournfully.  “Yes, I know.  You used to warn me.  Well, there’s not one of my brothers and sisters who does not feel that I carried off the family success, just as I might have carried off the family silver,—­if there’d been any!  They take the view that there were just so many prizes in the bag; I reached in and took them, so there were none left for the others.  At my age, that’s a dismal truth to waken up to.”

Cressida reached for my hand and held it a moment, as if she needed courage to face the facts in her case.  “When one remembers one’s first success; how one hoped to go home like a Christmas tree full of presents—­How much one learns in a life-time!  That year when Horace was a baby and Charley was dying, and I was touring the West with the Williams band, it was my feeling about my own people that made me go at all.  Why I didn’t