Lady Connie eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 449 pages of information about Lady Connie.

Lady Connie eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 449 pages of information about Lady Connie.

“All the same I could be grateful enough, in my own way, if you would let me.  But what you don’t understand is that men can’t lord it over women now as they used to do.  You say—­you”—­she stammered a little—­“you love me.  I don’t know yet—­what I feel.  I feel many different things.  But I know this:  A man who forbids me to do this and that—­to talk to this person—­or dance with some one else—­a man who does not trust and believe in me—­if I were ever so much in love with him, I would not marry him!  I should feel myself a coward and a slave!”

“One is always told”—­said Falloden hoarsely—­“that love makes it easy to grant even the most difficult things.  And I have begged the merest trifle.”

“’Begged’?” said Constance, raising her eyebrows.  “You issued a decree.  I am not to dance with Radowitz—­and I am not to see so much of Mr. Sorell—­if I am to keep your—­friendship.  I demurred.  You repeated it—­as though you were responsible for what I do, and had a right to command me.  Well, that does not suit me.  I am perfectly free, and I have given you no right to arrange my life for me.  So now let us understand each other.”

Falloden shrugged his shoulders.

“You have indeed made it perfectly plain!”

“I meant to,” said Constance vehemently.

But they could not keep their eyes from each other.  Both were pale.  In both the impulse to throw away pride and hold out a hand of yielding was all but strong enough to end their quarrel.  Both suffered, and if the truth were told, both were standing much deeper than before in the midstream of passion.

But neither spoke another word—­till the gate was reached.

Falloden opened it, and backed his horse out of Connie’s way.  In the road outside, at a little distance, the groom was waiting.

“Good-bye,” said Falloden, with ceremonious politeness.  “I wish I had not spoilt your ride.  Please do not give up riding in the woods, because you might be burdened with my company.  I shall never intrude upon you.  All the woodmen and keepers have been informed that you have full permission.  The family will be all away till the autumn.  But the woodmen will look after you, and give you no trouble.”

“Thank you!” said Constance, lightly, staying the mare for a moment.  “But surely some of the rides will be wanted directly for the pheasants?  Anyway I think I shall try the other side of Oxford.  They say Bagley is delightful.  Good-bye!”

She passed through, made a signal to Joseph, and was soon trotting fast towards Oxford.

* * * * *

On that return ride, Constance could not conceal from herself that she was unhappy.  Her lips quivered, her eyes had much ado to keep back the onset of tears—­now that there was no Falloden to see her, or provoke her.  How brightly their ride had begun!—­how miserably it had ended!  She thought of that first exhilaration; the early sun upon the wood; the dewy scents of moss and tree; Falloden’s face of greeting—­“How can you look so fresh!  You can’t have slept more than four hours—­and here you are!  Wonderful!  ’Did ever Dian so become a grove’—­”

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