Connie gave a sudden, startled cry. He turned again to smile at her.
“Didn’t you know? No, I believe no one knew, but Sorell and the doctors. It was nothing. It’s quite healed. But the strange thing was how extraordinarily happy I felt that week. I didn’t hate Falloden any more. It was as though a sharp thorn had gone from one’s mind. It didn’t last long of course, the queer ecstatic feeling. There was always my hand—and I got very low again. But something lasted; and when Falloden said that extraordinary thing—I don’t believe he meant to say it at all!—suggesting we should settle together for the winter—I knew that I must do it. It was a kind of miracle—one thing after another—driving us.”
His voice dropped. He remained gazing absently into the fire.
“Dear Otto”—said Constance softly—“you have forgiven him?”
He smiled.
“What does that matter? Have you?”
His eager eyes searched her face. She faltered under them.
“He doesn’t care whether I have or not.”
At that he laughed out.
“Doesn’t he? I say, did you ask us both to come—on purpose—that afternoon?—in the garden?”
She was silent.
“It was bold of you!” he said, in the same laughing tone. “But it has answered. Unless, of course, I bore him to death. I talk a lot of nonsense—I can’t help it—and he bears it. And he says hard, horrid things, sometimes—and my blood boils—and I bear it. And I expect he wants to break off a hundred times a day—and so do I. Yet here we stay. And it’s you”—he raised his head deliberately—“it’s you who are really at the bottom of it.”