Lady Connie eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 449 pages of information about Lady Connie.

Lady Connie eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 449 pages of information about Lady Connie.
kill him.  I never, if I could help it, crossed a certain boundary line that I had made for myself, between our side of the moor, and the side which belonged to the Fallodens.  I couldn’t be sure of myself if I had come upon him unawares.  Oh, of course, he would soon have got the better of me—­but there would have been a struggle—­I should have attacked him—­and I might have had a revolver.  So for your sake”—­he turned to look at her with his hollow blue eyes—­“I kept away.  Then, one evening, I quite forgot all about it.  I was thinking of the theme for the slow movement in my symphony, and I didn’t notice where I was going.  I walked on and on over the hill—­and at last I heard a man groaning—­and there was Sir Arthur by the stream.  I saw at once that he was dying.  There I sat, alone with him.  He asked me not to leave him.  He said something about Douglas, ‘Poor Douglas!’ And when the horrible thing came back—­the last time—­he just whispered, ‘Pray!’ and I said our Catholic prayers that our priest had said when my mother died.  Then Falloden came—­just in time—­and instead of wanting to kill him, I waited there, a little way off, and prayed hard for myself and him!  Queer, wasn’t it?  And afterwards—­you know—­I saw his mother.  Then the next day, I confessed to a dear old priest, who was very kind to me, and on the Sunday he gave me Communion.  He said God had been very gracious to me; and I saw what he meant.  That very week I had a hemorrhage, the first I ever had.”

Connie gave a sudden, startled cry.  He turned again to smile at her.

“Didn’t you know?  No, I believe no one knew, but Sorell and the doctors.  It was nothing.  It’s quite healed.  But the strange thing was how extraordinarily happy I felt that week.  I didn’t hate Falloden any more.  It was as though a sharp thorn had gone from one’s mind.  It didn’t last long of course, the queer ecstatic feeling.  There was always my hand—­and I got very low again.  But something lasted; and when Falloden said that extraordinary thing—­I don’t believe he meant to say it at all!—­suggesting we should settle together for the winter—­I knew that I must do it.  It was a kind of miracle—­one thing after another—­driving us.”

His voice dropped.  He remained gazing absently into the fire.

“Dear Otto”—­said Constance softly—­“you have forgiven him?”

He smiled.

“What does that matter?  Have you?”

His eager eyes searched her face.  She faltered under them.

“He doesn’t care whether I have or not.”

At that he laughed out.

“Doesn’t he?  I say, did you ask us both to come—­on purpose—­that afternoon?—­in the garden?”

She was silent.

“It was bold of you!” he said, in the same laughing tone.  “But it has answered.  Unless, of course, I bore him to death.  I talk a lot of nonsense—­I can’t help it—­and he bears it.  And he says hard, horrid things, sometimes—­and my blood boils—­and I bear it.  And I expect he wants to break off a hundred times a day—­and so do I. Yet here we stay.  And it’s you”—­he raised his head deliberately—­“it’s you who are really at the bottom of it.”

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