of fact the world has a considerable respect for cleverness, whatever form it takes, and success justifies everything.  So the world was pleased to attribute to me all the good qualities and evil propensities, all the victories and defeats which had never been mine; credited me with conquests of which I knew nothing, and sat in judgment upon actions of which I had never been guilty.  I scorned to contradict the slanders, and self-love led me to regard the more flattering rumors with a certain complacence.  Outwardly my existence was pleasant enough, but in reality I was miserable.  If it had not been for the tempest of misfortunes that very soon burst over my head, all good impulses must have perished, and evil would have triumphed in the struggle that went on within me; enervating self-indulgence would have destroyed the body, as the detestable habits of egotism exhausted the springs of the soul.  But I was ruined financially.  This was how it came about.

“No matter how large his fortune may be, a man is sure to find some one else in Paris possessed of yet greater wealth, whom he must needs aim at surpassing.  In this unequal conquest I was vanquished at the end of four years; and, like many another harebrained youngster, I was obliged to sell part of my property and to mortgage the remainder to satisfy my creditors.  Then a terrible blow suddenly struck me down.

“Two years had passed since I had last seen the woman whom I had deserted.  The turn that my affairs were taking would no doubt have brought me back to her once more; but one evening, in the midst of a gay circle of acquaintances, I received a note written in a trembling hand.  It only contained these few words: 

“’I have only a very little while to live, and I should like to see you, my friend, so that I may know what will become of my child —­whether henceforward he will be yours; and also to soften the regret that some day you might perhaps feel for my death.’

“The letter made me shudder.  It was a revelation of secret anguish in the past, while it contained a whole unknown future.  I set out on foot, I would not wait for my carriage, I went across Paris, goaded by remorse, and gnawed by a dreadful fear that was confirmed by the first sight of my victim.  In the extreme neatness and cleanliness beneath which she had striven to hid her poverty I read all the terrible sufferings of her life; she was nobly reticent about them in her effort to spare my feelings, and only alluded to them after I had solemnly promised to adopt our child.  She died, sir, in spite of all the care lavished upon her, and all that science could suggest was done for her in vain.  The care and devotion that had come too late only served to render her last moments less bitter.