for my sake. He took command; he banished all
the horrible people who had taken possession of me.
He gave me freedom, and he set himself to safe-guard
me. He brought me home. He was with me night
and day, or if not actually with me, within call.
He and Biddy between them brought me back. They
watched me, nursed me, cared for me. Whenever
my trouble was greater than I could bear, he was always
there to help me. He never left me; and gradually
he became so necessary to me that I couldn’t
contemplate life without him. I have been terribly
selfish.” A low sob checked her utterance
for a moment, and Dinah’s young arms tightened.
“I let my grief take hold of me to the exclusion
of everything else. I didn’t see—I
didn’t realize—the sacrifice he was
making. For years I took it all as a right, living
in my fog of misery and blind to all beside. But
now—now at last—thanks to you,
little one, whom I nearly killed—my eyes
are open once more. The fog has rolled away.
No, I can never be happy. I am of those who wait.
But I will never again, God helping me, deprive others
of happiness. Scott shall live his own life now.
His devotion to me must come to an end. My greatest
wish in life now is that he may meet a woman worthy
of him, who will love him as he deserves to be loved,
before I climb the peaks of Paradise and find my beloved
in the dawning.” Isabel’s voice sank.
She pressed Dinah close against her heart. “It
will not be long,” she whispered. “I
have had a message that there is no mistaking, I know
it will not be long. But oh, darling, I do want
to see him happy first.”
Dinah was crying softly. She could find no words
to utter.
So for awhile they clung together, the woman who had
suffered and come at last through bitter tribulation
into peace, and the child whose feet yet halted on
the threshold of the enchanted country that the other
had long since traversed and left behind.
Nothing further passed between them. Isabel had
said her say, and for some reason Dinah was powerless
to speak. She could think of no words to utter,
and deep in her heart she was half afraid to break
the silence. That sudden agitation of hers had
left her oddly confused and embarrassed. She
shrank from pursuing the matter further.
Yet for a long time that night she lay awake pondering,
wondering. Certainly Scott was different from
all other men, totally, undeniably different.
He seemed to dwell on a different plane. She could
not grasp what it was about him that set him thus
apart. But what Isabel had said showed her very
clearly that the spirit that dwelt behind that unimposing
exterior was a force that counted, and could hold its
own against odds.
She slept at last with the thought of him still present
in her mind. And in her dreams the vision of
Greatheart in his shining armour came to her again,
filling her with a happiness which even sleeping she
did not dare to analyse, scarcely to contemplate.