they had romantic sentiment enough to make them sacrifice
their time, their property, and sometimes even their
life, to the attainment of an unrealisable ideal;
and while congratulating themselves on having passed
from the religious to the positivist stage of intellectual
development, they frequently showed themselves animated
with the spirit of the early martyrs! Rarely
have the strange inconsistencies of human nature been
so strikingly exemplified as in these unpractical,
anti-religious fanatics. In dealing with them
I might easily, without very great exaggeration, produce
a most amusing caricature, but I prefer describing
them as they really were. A few years after the
period here referred to I knew some of them intimately,
and I must say that, without at all sharing or sympathising
with their opinions, I could not help respecting them
as honourable, upright, quixotic men and women who
had made great sacrifices for their convictions.
One of them whom I have specially in view at this
moment suffered patiently for years from the utter
shipwreck of his generous illusions, and when he could
no longer hope to see the dawn of a brighter day,
he ended by committing suicide. Yet that man
believed himself to be a Realist, a Materialist, and
a Utilitarian of the purest water, and habitually
professed a scathing contempt for every form of romantic
sentiment! In reality he was one of the best and
most sympathetic men I have ever known.
To return from this digression. So long as the
subversive opinions were veiled in abstract language
they raised misgivings in only a comparative small
circle; but when school-teachers put them into a form
suited to the juvenile mind, they were apt to produce
startling effects. In a satirical novel of the
time a little girl is represented as coming to her
mother and saying, “Little mamma! Maria
Ivan’na (our new school-mistress) says there
is no God and no Tsar, and that it is wrong to marry!”
Whether such incidents actually occurred in real life,
as several friends assured me, I am not prepared to
say, but certainly people believed that they might
occur in their own families, and that was quite sufficient
to produce alarm even in the ranks of the Liberals,
to say nothing of the rapidly increasing army of the
Reactionaries.
To illustrate the general uneasiness produced in St.
Petersburg, I may quote here a letter written in October,
1861, by a man who occupied one of the highest positions
in the Administration. As he had the reputation
of being an ultra-Liberal who sympathised overmuch
with Young Russia, we may assume that he did not take
an exceptionally alarmist view of the situation.