crossing the road, perhaps your fellow-traveller has
no smell. If you point to a distant object, perhaps
he is short-sighted, and has to take out his glass
to look at it. There is a feeling in the air,
a tone in the colour of a cloud, which hits your fancy,
but the effect of which you are unable to account
for. There is then no sympathy, but an uneasy
craving after it, and a dissatisfaction which pursues
you on the way, and in the end probably produces ill-humour.
Now I never quarrel with myself, and take all my own
conclusions for granted till I find it necessary to
defend them against objections. It is not merely
that you may not be of accord on the objects and circumstances
that present themselves before you—these
may recall a number of objects, and lead to associations
too delicate and refined to be possibly communicated
to others. Yet these I love to cherish, and sometimes
still fondly clutch them, when I can escape from the
throng to do so. To give way to our feelings before
company seems extravagance or affectation; and, on
the other hand, to have to unravel this mystery of
our being at every turn, and to make others take an
equal interest in it (otherwise the end is not answered),
is a task to which few are competent. We must
“give it an understanding, but no tongue.”
My old friend Coleridge, however, could do both.
He could go on in the most delightful explanatory
way over hill and dale a summer’s day, and convert
a landscape into a didactic poem or a Pindaric ode.
“He talked far above singing.” If
I could so clothe my ideas in sounding and flowing
words, I might perhaps wish to have some one with
me to admire the swelling theme; or I could be more
content, were it possible for me still to hear his
echoing voice in the woods of All-Foxden. They
had “that fine madness in them which our first
poets had”; and, if they could have been caught
by some rare instrument, would have breathed such
strains as the following:
Here
be woods as green
As any, air likewise as fresh and sweet
As when smooth Zephyrus plays on the fleet
Face of the curled streams, with flowers
as many
As the young spring gives, and as choice
as any;
Here be all new delights, cool streams
and wells,
Arbours o’ergrown with woodbines,
caves and dells;
Choose where thou wilt, whilst I sit by
and sing,
Or gather rushes to make many a ring
For thy long fingers; tell thee tales
of love,
How the pale Phoebe, hunting in a grove,
First saw the boy Endymion, from whose
eye
She took eternal fire that never dies;
How she convey’d him softly in a
sleep,
His temples bound with poppy, to the steep
Head of old Latmos, where she stoops each
night,
Gilding the mountains with her brother’s
light,
To kiss her sweetest.
Had I words and images at command like these, I would
attempt to wake the thoughts that lie slumbering on
golden ridges in the evening clouds: but at the
sight of nature my fancy, poor as it is, droops and
closes up its leaves, like flowers at sunset.
I can make nothing out on the spot: I must have
time to collect myself.