headlong into the wave that wafts him to his native
shore. Then long-forgotten things, like “sunken
wrack and sumless treasuries,” burst upon my
eager sight, and I begin to feel, think, and be myself
again. Instead of an awkward silence, broken by
attempts at wit or dull commonplaces, mine is that
undisturbed silence of the heart which alone is perfect
eloquence. No one likes puns, alliterations,
antitheses, argument, and analysis better than I do;
but I sometimes had rather be without them. “Leave,
oh, leave me to my repose!” I have just now
other business in hand, which would seem idle to you,
but is with me “very stuff o’ the conscience.”
Is not this wild rose sweet without a comment?
Does not this daisy leap to my heart set in its coat
of emerald? Yet if I were to explain to you the
circumstance that has so endeared it to me, you would
only smile. Had I not better, then, keep it to
myself, and let it serve me to brood over, from here
to yonder craggy point, and from thence onward to
the far-distant horizon? I should be but bad
company all that way, and therefore prefer being alone.
I have heard it said that you may, when the moody
fit comes on, walk or ride on by yourself and indulge
your reveries. But this looks like a breach of
manners, a neglect of others, and you are thinking
all the time that you ought to rejoin your party.
“Out upon such half-faced fellowship,”
say I. I like to be either entirely to myself, or
entirely at the disposal of others; to talk or be
silent, to walk or sit still, to be sociable or solitary.
I was pleased with an observation of Mr. Cobbett’s
that he thought it a bad French custom to drink our
wine with our meals, and that an Englishman ought
to do only one thing at a time. So I cannot talk
and think, or indulge in melancholy musing and lively
conversation by fits and starts. “Let me
have a companion of my way,” says Sterne, “were
it but to remark how the shadows lengthen as the sun
declines.” It is beautifully said; but,
in my opinion, this continual comparing of notes interferes
with the involuntary impression of things upon the
mind, and hurts the sentiment. If you only hint
what you feel in a kind of dumb-show, it is insipid:
if you have to explain it, it is making a toil of
a pleasure. You cannot read the book of nature
without being perpetually put to the trouble of translating
it for the benefit of others. I am for this synthetical
method on a journey in preference to the analytical.
I am content to lay in a stock of ideas then, and to
examine and anatomise them afterwards. I want
to see my vague notions float like the down of the
thistle before the breeze, and not to have them entangled
in the briars and thorns of controversy. For once,
I like to have it all my own way; and this is impossible
unless you are alone, or in such company as I do not
covet. I have no objection to argue a point with
any one for twenty miles of measured road, but not
for pleasure. If you remark the scent of a bean-field