It’s another provoking way you people have of laughing at romantic young women. Sentimental, you call them. I tell you it’s the most womanly thing in the world to be sentimental. A woman’s affections reaching out toward a man’s heart is as much a part of Nature, and just as pretty a thing in Nature, as the morning-glory—or let us take the old and oft-used yet good illustration of the ivy and the oak. When the woman’s reaching affections attain the sought heart, everybody cries out, “How sweet and tender and graceful!” But if they miss of the hold, then there is derision. Here, as everywhere else, there are cheers for success and no pity for failure.
Well, however you may receive it, the truth must be acknowledged: my Susan was sentimental. She had had her longings and dreams, and an abundance of those great vague heartaches which only sentimental people can have. She had gone through with the whole—the sweet hopes, the yearning expectancy, the vague anxiety, the brooding doubt, the slow giving up—the reluctant acceptance of her fading life. Her romance died hard. Very gradually, and with many a protest, the woman of heartaches and sentiment glided into the practical and commonplace maiden lady who served on all sorts of committees and watched with sick people.
At an early age, when she was barely sixteen, the suggestion had been forced on Susan that it was her duty to spread her wings and leave the paternal nest to earn her living. Of course she went to teaching. That’s what such people as Susan always do in like circumstances. At first her earnings went into the family fund to buy bread for little mouths that were not to blame for being hungry, and shoes for little feet that did not know wherefore they had been set to travel life’s road. But after a while a portion of Susan’s salary came to be deposited in bank as her very own money, to have and to hold. She had now reached the giving-up period of her life, when the heartaches were dulling, and the nameless longings were being resolved into occasional lookings back to the time when there had been hopes of deliverance from the commonplace. Having tasted the sweets of being a capitalist, Susan came in process of time to be eager at money-getting and at money-saving and at speculating. The day arrived when my sentimental Susan had United States bonds and railroad stocks, and owned a half acre in city lots in a great, teeming, tempestuous State metropolis.
It was at this period in her affairs that Susan received a gift of fifteen hundred dollars from her bachelor uncle Adolphus, “as a token,” so the letter of transmission read, “of my approval of your industry and of your business ability and successes, and as a mark of my gratitude for your kindness to me twenty-one years ago when I was sick at your father’s house. You were the only one of my brother’s children that showed me any consideration.”
“Twenty-one years ago!” exclaimed Gertrude, Susan’s younger sister, when she had read the letter through. “Why, that was before I was born! How in the world could I show him consideration? I wish to goodness he’d come here now and get sick. I’d show him consideration: I’d tend him like an own mother.”