My flute! and flung away its echoes sleep;
But as for me, my life-pulse beateth low;
And like a last-year’s leaf enshrouded deep
Under the drifting
snow,
Or like some vessel wrecked upon the sand
Of torrid swamps, with all her merchandise,
And left to rot betwixt the sea and land,
My helpless spirit
lies.
Rueing, I think for what then was I made;
What end appointed for—what
use designed?
Now let me right this heart that was bewrayed—
Unveil these eyes
gone blind.
My well-beloved friend, at noon to-day
Over our cliffs a white mist lay unfurled,
So thick, one standing on their brink might say,
Lo, here doth
end the world.
A white abyss beneath, and nought beside;
Yet, hark! a cropping sound not ten feet
down:
Soon I could trace some browsing lambs that hied
Through rock-paths
cleft and brown.
And here and there green tufts of grass peered through,
Salt lavender, and sea thrift; then behold
The mist, subsiding ever, bared to view
A beast of giant
mould.
She seemed a great sea-monster lying content
With all her cubs about her: but
deep—deep—
The subtle mist went floating; its descent
Showed the world’s
end was steep.
It shook, it melted, shaking more, till, lo,
The sprawling monster was a rock; her
brood
Were boulders, whereon sea-mews white as snow
Sat watching for
their food.
Then once again it sank, its day was done:
Part rolled away, part vanished utterly,
And glimmering softly under the white sun,
Behold! a great
white sea.
O that the mist which veileth my To-come
Would so dissolve and yield unto mine
eyes
A worthy path! I’d count not wearisome
Long toil, nor
enterprise,
But strain to reach it; ay, with wrestlings stout
And hopes that even in the dark will grow
(Like plants in dungeons, reaching feelers out),
And ploddings
wary and slow.
Is there such path already made to fit
The measure of my foot? It shall
atone
For much, if I at length may light on it
And know it for
mine own.
But is there none? why, then, ’tis more than
well:
And glad at heart myself will hew one
out,
Let me he only sure; for, sooth to tell,
The sorest dole
is doubt—
Doubt, a blank twilight of the heart, which mars
All sweetest colors in its dimness same;
A soul-mist, through whose rifts familiar stare
Beholding, we
misname.
A ripple on the inner sea, which shakes
Those images that on its breast reposed;
A fold upon a wind-swayed flag, that breaks
The motto it disclosed.
O doubt! O doubt! I know my destiny;
I feel thee fluttering bird-like in my
breast;
I cannot loose, but I will sing to thee,
And flatter thee
to rest.