Might stab her heart, she hid them so,
The cooing babe a veil supplied;
And if she listened none might know,
Or
if she sighed;
Or if forecasting grief and care
Unconscious solace thence she drew,
And lulled her babe, and unaware
Lulled
sorrow too.
The lady, she interpreter
For looks or language wanted none,
If yet dominion stayed with her—
So
lightly won;
If yet the heart she wounded sore
Could yearn to her, and let her see
The homage that was evermore
Disloyalty;
If sign would yield that it had bled,
Or rallied from the faithless blow,
Or sick or sullen stooped to wed,
She
craved to know.
Now dreamy deep, now sweetly keen,
Her asking eyes would round him shine;
But guarded lips and settled mien
Refused
the sign.
And unbeguiled and unbetrayed,
The wonder yet within his breast,
It seemed a watchful part he played
Against
her quest.
Until with accent of regret
She touched upon the past once more,
As if she dared him to forget
His
dream of yore.
And words of little weight let fall
The fancy of the lower mind;
How waxing life must needs leave all
Its
best behind;
How he had said that “he would fain
(One morning on the halcyon sea)
That life would at a stand remain
Eternally;
“And sails be mirrored in the deep,
As then they were, for evermore,
And happy spirits wake and sleep
Afar
from shore:
“The well-contented heart be fed
Ever as then, and all the world
(It were not small) unshadowed
When
sails were furled.
“Your words”—a pause, and quietly
With touch of calm self-ridicule:
“It may be so—for then,” said
he,
“I
was a fool.”
With that he took his book, and left
An awkward silence to my care,
That soon I filled with questions deft
And
debonair;
And slid into an easy vein,
The favorite picture of the year;
The grouse upon her lord’s domain—
The
salmon weir;
Till she could fain a sudden thought
Upon neglected guests, and rise,
And make us her adieux, with nought
In
her dark eyes
Acknowledging or shame or pain;
But just unveiling for our view
A little smile of still disdain
As
she withdrew.
Then nearer did the sunshine creep,
And warmer came the wafting breeze;
The little babe was fast asleep
On
mother’s knees.
Fair was the face that o’er it leant,
The cheeks with beauteous blushes dyed;
The downcast lashes, shyly bent,
That
failed to hide
Some tender shame. She did not see;
She felt his eyes that would not stir,
She looked upon her babe, and he
So
looked at her.