Once a week the hero partook of food. Many times a day he bowed his head to his feet; one man counted twelve hundred and forty-four times and then stopped in sheer weariness from gazing at the miracle of endurance aloft. Again, from the setting of the sun to its appearance in the East, he would stand unsoothed by sleep with his arms outstretched like a cross.
If genius can understand such a life as that and fancy the thoughts of such a soul, Tennyson seems not only to have comprehended the consciousness of the Pillar Saint, but also to have succeeded in giving expression to his insight. He has laid bare the soul of Simeon in its commingling of spiritual pride with affected humility, and of a consciousness of meritorious sacrifice with a sense of sin. The Saint spurns notoriety and the homage of men, yet exults in his control over the multitudes.
The poet thus imagines Simeon to speak as the Saint is praying God to take away his sin:
“But yet
Bethink thee, Lord,
while thou and all the saints
Enjoy themselves in
heaven, and men on earth
House in the shade of
comfortable roofs,
Sit with their wives
by fires, eat wholesome food,
And wear warm clothes,
and even beasts have stalls,
I, ’tween the
spring and downfall of the light,
Bow down one thousand
and two hundred times,
To Christ, the Virgin
Mother, and the Saints;
Or in the night, after
a little sleep,
I wake: the chill
stars sparkle; I am wet
With drenching dews,
or stiff with crackling frost.
I wear an undress’d
goatskin on my back;
A grazing iron collar
grinds my neck;
And in my weak, lean
arms I lift the cross,
And strive and wrestle
with thee till I die:
O mercy, mercy! wash
away my sin.
O Lord, thou knowest
what a man I am;
A sinful man, conceived
and born in sin:
’Tis their own
doing; this is none of mine;
Lay it not to me.
Am I to blame for this,
That here come those
that worship me? Ha! ha!
They think that I am
somewhat. What am I?
The silly people take
me for a saint,
And bring me offerings
of fruit and flowers:
And I, in truth (thou
wilt bear witness here)
Have all in all endured
as much, and more
Than many just and holy
men, whose names
Are register’d
and calendared for saints.
Good people, you do
ill to kneel to me.
What is it I can have
done to merit this?
* * * * *
Yet do not rise; for
you may look on me,
And in your looking
you may kneel to God.
Speak! is there any
of you halt or maim’d?
I think you know I have
some power with Heaven
From my long penance:
let him speak his wish.