to give her up.... She was the kind of woman
who, if she once let herself go, would play the devil.
Turning from the fire he looked into the glass....
He admitted to eight-and-thirty, he was forty—a
very well-preserved forty. There were times when
he did not look more than five-and-thirty. His
hair was paler than it used to be; it was growing a
little thin on the forehead, otherwise he was the
same as when he was five-and-twenty. But he was
forty, and a man of forty cannot marry a prima donna
of twenty. Five pleasant years they might have
together, five delicious years; it were vain to expect
more. But he would not get her to go away with
him under a promise of marriage; all such deception
he held to be as dishonourable as cheating at cards.
So in their next interview it would have to be suggested
that there could be no question of marriage, at least
for the present. At the same time he would have
her understand that he intended to shirk no responsibility.
But if he were to tire of her! That was another
possibility, and a hateful one; he would prefer that
she should jilt him. Perhaps it would be better
to give her up, and throw his fate in with the list.
But he was tired of country houses, with or without
a
liaison, and felt that he could not go through
another season’s hunting; he had no horses that
suited him, and didn’t seem to be able to find
any. To go abroad with Evelyn, watch over the
cultivation of her voice, see her fame rising, that
was his mission! The only question to decide
was whether he was in love with her. He would
not hesitate a moment if he were only sure of that.
He thought of the women he knew. Georgina was
the first to come up in his mind. He had been
to see her, and had come away at a loss to understand
what he had ever seen in her. She had struck
him as vulgar and middle-class, sly, with a taste
for intrigue. He remembered that was how she had
struck him when he first saw her. But if anyone
had described her as vulgar and middle-class six months
ago. Good heavens!
CHAPTER SEVEN
The day grew too fine, as he said, for false notes,
so the music lesson was abandoned, and they went to
sit in the garden behind the picture gallery, a green
sward with high walls covered with creeper, and at
one end a great cedar with a seat built about the
trunk; a quiet place rife with songs of birds, and
unfrequented save by them. They had taken with
them Omar’s verses, and Evelyn hoped that he
would talk to her about them, for the garden of the
Persian poet she felt to be separated only by a wicket
from theirs. But Owen did not respond to her humour.
He was prepense to argue about the difficulties of
her life, and of the urgent necessity of vanquishing
these.
He had noticed, he said, as they sat in the park,
that she had a weak face. Her thoughts were far
away; he had caught her face, as it were, napping,
and had seen through it to the root of her being.
The conclusion at which he had arrived was that she
was not capable of leading an independent life.