Ye know, O saints of heaven,
what I have borne
Of discipline and scourge; the twisted
lash
Of knotted rope that striped my shrinking
limbs;
Vigils and fasts protracted, till my flesh
Wasted and crumbled from mine aching bones,
And the last skin, one woof of pain and
sores,
Thereto like yellow parchment loosely
clung;
Exposure to the fever and the frost,
When ’mongst the hollows of the
hills I lurked
From persecution of misguided folk,
Accustoming my spirit to ignore
The burden of the cross, while picturing
The bliss of disembodied souls, the grace
Of holiness, the lives of sainted men,
And entertaining all exalted thoughts,
That nowise touched the trouble of the
hour,
Until the grief and pain seemed far less
real
Than the creations of my brain inspired.
The vision, the beatitude, were true:
The agony was but an evil dream.
I speak not now as one who hath not learned
The purport of those lightly-bandied words,
Evil and Fate, but rather one who knows
The thunders of the terrors of the world.
No mortal chance or change, no earthly
shock,
Can move or reach my soul, securely throned
On heights of contemplation and calm prayer,
Happy, serene, no less with actual joy
Of present peace than faith in joys to
come.
This soft, sweet, yellow evening,
how the trees
Stand crisp against the clear, bright-colored
sky!
How the white mountain-tops distinctly
shine,
Taking and giving radiance, and the slopes
Are purpled with rich floods of peach-hued
light!
Thank God, my filmy, old dislustred eyes
Find the same sense of exquisite delight,
My heart vibrates to the same touch of
joy
In scenes like this, as when my pulse
danced high,
And youth coursed through my veins!
This the one link
That binds the wan old man that now I
am
To the wild lad who followed up the hounds
Among Ravenna’s pine-woods by the
sea.
For there how oft would I lose all delight
In the pursuit, the triumph or the game,
To stray alone among the shadowy glades,
And gaze, as one who is not satisfied
With gazing, at the large, bright, breathing
sea,
The forest glooms, and shifting gleams
between
The fine dark fringes of the fadeless
trees,
On gold-green turf, sweetbrier and wild
pink rose!
How rich that buoyant air with changing
scent
Of pungent pine, fresh flowers and salt
cool seas!
And when all echoes of the chase had died,
Of horn and halloo, bells and baying hounds,
How mine ears drank the ripple of the
tide
On that fair shore, the chirp of unseen
birds,
The rustling of the tangled undergrowth,
And the deep lyric murmur of the pines,
When through their high tops swept the
sudden breeze!
There was my world, there would my heart