force and attraction in their most petty actions and
words, to which men yield. Miss Muller could
have watched Kitty all day dragging chairs and trimming
lamps, unmoved farther than to pronounce her little
better than an idiot. But Peter, Muller or John
McCall could not look at her for five minutes without
classing her with Cordelia and Desdemona and all the
other sweet fools for whom men have died, and whom
the world yet keeps sacred in pathetic memory.
Some day too, when Catharine should be a mother—though
giving to her older children, little more than to
the baby on her breast, soft touches and gentle words—she
would bind them to her as no other kind, of mother
could do—by such bonds that until they were
gray-haired no power should be like hers. Miss
Muller neither saw nor foresaw such things. But
Doctor McCall did. “If I had had such a
mother I should not have been what I am,” he
thought. It was a curious fancy to have about
a young girl. But she seemed to embody all the
womanliness that had been lacking in his life.
Of course she was nothing to him. She was to be
that prig Muller’s wife, and he was quite satisfied
that she should be. If he married, Maria Muller
would be his wife. Yet, oddly enough, he felt
to-night, for the first time, the necessity that Maria
should know how marriage was barred out from him,
and felt, for the first time, too, a maddening anger
that it was so barred. However, Doctor McCall
was never meant by Nature for a solitary man housed
alone with morbid thoughts: he was the stuff
out of which useful citizens are made—John
Andersons of husbands, doting, gullible fathers.
Remembering the bar in his life, his skeleton, ghost
or whatever it was, he was only moved to get up and
stretch himself, saying, “I’ve stayed
in Berrytown too long. When you have told me your
plan, I’ll say good-bye to you, Miss Vogdes,
and this old house. I shall be off to-morrow.”
Kitty had just caught a moth in the flame of the candle.
She carried it to the window. “You will
come back soon, of course?” her back still toward
him.
“No, I think not. I am neglecting my business.
And I, of all men in the world, have least right to
loiter about this old house, to look in on its home-life
or on you.”
Kitty gave him a sharp glance, as though some sudden
emergency was clear before her which her tact failed
to meet. She was folding the bits of muslin at
which she had been sewing in a basket: she finished
slowly, put the basket away, and sat down at the table,
with her elbow on it and her chin on her hand, her
gray eyes suggesting a deeper and unspoken meaning
to her words: “But for my plan?”
“Ah! to be sure! You want advice?”
seating himself comfortably. Her confusion was
a pretty thing to watch, the red creeping up her neck
into her face, blotting out its delicate tints, the
uncertain glances, the full bitten lip. Doctor
McCall quite forgot his own trouble in the keen pleasure
of the sight.