Now what can I do?  Invent a falsehood?  All falsehoods are stupid!  Then I would have to write it, for I could not undertake to lie to his face.  With strangers and people indifferent to me, I might manage it; but to look into the face of the man who loves me, who gazes so honestly into my eyes when I speak to him, who understands every expression of my countenance, who observes and admires the blush that flushes my cheek, who is familiar with every modulation of my voice, as a musician with the tones of his instrument—­

Why, it is a moral impossibility to attempt such a thing!  A forced smile, a false tone, would put him on his guard at once; he becomes suspicious.

At his first question my fine castle of lies vanishes into air, and I have to fall back on the unvarnished truth.

To gratify you, Valentine, I will lie, but lie at a distance.  I feel that it is necessary to put many stations and provinces between my native candor and the people I am to deceive.

Why do you scold me so much?  You must see that I have not acted thoughtlessly; my conduct is strange, eccentric and mysterious to no one but Roger.

To every one else it is perfectly proper.  I am supposed to be in the neighborhood of Fontainebleau, with the Duchess de Langeac, at her daughter’s house; and as the poor girl is very sick and receives no company, I can disappear for a short time without my absence calling forth remark, or raising an excitement in the country.

I have told my cousin a part of the truth—­she understands my scruples and doubts.  She thinks it very natural that I should wish to consider the matter over before engaging myself for life; she knows that I am staying with an old friend, and as I have promised to return home in two weeks, she is not a bit uneasy about me.

“My child,” she said when we parted, “if you decide to marry, I will go with you to Paris; if not, you shall go with us to enjoy the waters of Aix.”  I have discovered that Aix is a good place to learn news of our friends in Isere.  You also reproach me for not having told Roger all my troubles; for having hidden from him what you flatteringly call “the most beautiful pages of my life.”

O, Valentine! in this matter I am wiser than you, in spite of your matronly experience and acknowledged wisdom.  Doubtless you understand better than I do, the serious affairs of life, but about the frivolities, I think I know best, and I tell you that courage in a woman is not an attraction in the eyes of these latter-day beaux.

Their weak minds, with an affected nicety, prefer a sighing, supplicating coquette, decked in pretty ribbons, surrounded by luxuries that are the price of her dignity; one who pours her sorrows into the lover’s ear—­yes!  I say they prefer such a one to a noble woman who bravely faces misery with proud resignation, who refuses the favors of those she despises, and calm, strong, self-reliant, waters with her tears her hard-earned bread.