“Are you so much offended, you will
not speak to me?” said she.
“Am I so much to blame, that yesterday,
when you were pleading
Warmly the cause of another, my heart,
impulsive and wayward,
Pleaded your own, and spake out, forgetful
perhaps of decorum? 635
Certainly you can forgive me for speaking
so frankly, for saying
What I ought not to have said, yet now
I can never unsay it;
For there are moments in life, when the
heart is so full of emotion,
That if by chance it be shaken, or into
its depths like a pebble
Drops some careless word, it overflows,
and its secret, 640
Spilt on the ground like water, can never
be gathered together.
Yesterday I was shocked, when I heard
you speak of Miles Standish,
Praising his virtues, transforming his
very defects into virtues,
Praising his courage and strength, and
even his fighting in Flanders,
As if by fighting alone you could win
the heart of a woman, 645
Quite overlooking yourself and the rest,
in exalting your hero.
Therefore I spake as I did, by an irresistible
impulse.
You will forgive me, I hope, for the sake
of the friendship between us,
Which is too true and too sacred to be
so easily broken!”
Thereupon answered John Alden, the scholar,
the friend
of Miles Standish:
650
“I was not angry with you, with
myself alone I was angry,
Seeing how badly I managed the matter
I had in my keeping.”
“No!” interrupted the maiden,
with answer prompt, and decisive;
“No; you were angry with me, for
speaking so frankly and freely.
I was wrong, I acknowledge; for it is
the fate of a woman 655
Long to be patient and silent, to wait
like a ghost that is speechless,
Till some questioning voice dissolves
the spell of its silence.
Hence is the inner life of so many suffering
women
Sunless and silent and deep, like subterranean
rivers
Running through caverns of darkness, unheard,
unseen,
and unfruitful,
660
Chafing their channels of stone, with
endless and profitless murmurs.”
Thereupon answered John Alden, the young
man, the lover of women:
“Heaven forbid it, Priscilla; and
truly they seem to me always
More like the beautiful rivers that watered
the garden of Eden,[43]
More like the river Euphrates, through
deserts of Havilah flowing, 665
Filling the land with delight, and memories
sweet of the garden!”
“Ah, by these words, I can see,”
again interrupted the maiden,
“How very little you prize me, or
care for what I am saying.
When from the depths of my heart, in pain
and with secret misgiving,
Frankly I speak to you, asking for sympathy
only and kindness, 670
Straightway you take up my words, that
are plain and direct