There with his boat was the Master, already
a little impatient
Lest he should lose the tide, or the wind
might shift to the eastward,
Square-built, hearty, and strong, with
an odor of ocean about him,
Speaking with this one and that, and cramming
letters and parcels 555
Into his pockets capacious, and messages
mingled together
Into his narrow brain, till at last he
was wholly bewildered.
Nearer the boat stood Alden, with one
foot placed on the gunwale,[36]
One still firm on the rock, and talking
at times with the sailors,
Seated erect on the thwarts,[37] all ready
and eager for starting, 560
He too was eager to go, and thus put an
end to his anguish,
Thinking to fly from despair, that swifter
than keel is or canvas,
Thinking to drown in the sea the ghost
that would rise and pursue him.
But as he gazed on the crowd, he beheld
the form of Priscilla
Standing dejected among them, unconscious
of all that was passing. 565
Fixed were her eyes upon his, as if she
divined his intention,
Fixed with a look so sad, so reproachful,
imploring, and patient,
That with a sudden revulsion his heart
recoiled from its purpose,
As from the verge of a crag, where one
step more is destruction.
Strange is the heart of man, with its
quick, mysterious instincts! 570
Strange is the life of man, and fatal
or fated are moments,
Whereupon turn, as on hinges, the gates
of the wall adamantine[38]
“Here I remain!” he exclaimed,
as he looked at the heavens above him,
Thanking the Lord whose breath had scattered
the mist and the madness,
Wherein, blind and lost, to death he was
staggering headlong. 575
“Yonder snow-white cloud, that floats
in the ether above me,
Seems like a hand that is pointing, and
beckoning over the ocean.
There is another hand, that is not so
spectral and ghost-like,
Holding me, drawing me back, and clasping
mine for protection.
Float, O hand of cloud, and vanish away
in the ether! 580
Roll thyself up like a fist, to threaten,
and daunt me; I heed not
Either your warning or menace, or any
omen of evil!
There is no land so sacred, no air so
pure and so wholesome,
As is the air she breathes, and the soil
that is pressed
by her footsteps.
Here for her sake will I stay, and like
an invisible presence 585
Hover around her forever, protecting,
supporting her weakness;
Yes! as my foot was the first that stepped
on this rock at the landing,
So, with the blessing of God, shall it
be the last at the leaving!”
Meanwhile the Master alert, but with dignified
air and important,
Scanning with watchful eye the tide and
the wind and the weather, 590
Walked about on the sands, and the people
crowded around him
Saying a few last words, and enforcing
his careful remembrance.