Climbing the old gray tower, and the quiet graves in the churchyard. 275
Kind are the people I live with, and dear to me my religion;
Still my heart is so sad, that I wish myself back in Old England.
You will say it is wrong, but I cannot help it: I almost
Wish myself back in Old England, I feel so lonely and wretched.”
Thereupon answered the youth: “Indeed
I do not condemn you; 280
Stouter hearts than a woman’s have
quailed in this terrible winter.
Yours is tender and trusting, and needs
a stronger to lean on;
So I have come to you now, with an offer
and proffer of marriage
Made by a good man and true, Miles Standish
the Captain of Plymouth!”
Thus he delivered his message, the dexterous
writer of letters,— 285
Did not embellish the theme, nor array
it in beautiful phrases,
But came straight to the point, and blurted
it out like a school-boy;
Even the Captain himself could hardly
have said it more bluntly.
Mute with amazement and sorrow, Priscilla
the Puritan maiden
Looked into Alden’s face, her eyes
dilated with wonder, 290
Feeling his words like a blow, that stunned
her and rendered
her speechless;
Till at length she exclaimed, interrupting
the ominous silence:
“If the great Captain of Plymouth
is so very eager to wed me,
Why does he not come himself, and take
the trouble to woo me?
If I am not worth the wooing, I surely
am not worth the winning!” 295
Then John Alden began explaining and smoothing
the matter,
Making it worse as he went, by saying
the Captain was busy,—
Had no time for such things;—such
things! the words grated harshly
Fell on the ear of Priscilla; and swift
as a flash she made answer:
“Has he no time for such things,
as you call it, before he
is married,
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Would he be likely to find it, or make
it, after the wedding?
That is the way with you men; you don’t
understand us, you cannot.
When you have made up your minds, after
thinking of this one
and that one,
Choosing, selecting, rejecting, comparing
one with another,
Then you make known your desire, with
abrupt and sudden avowal, 305
And are offended and hurt, and indignant,
perhaps, that a woman
Does not respond at once to a love that
she never suspected,
Does not attain at a bound the height
to which you have been climbing.
This is not right nor just, for surely
a woman’s affection
Is not a thing to be asked for, and had
for only the asking. 310
When one is truly in love, one not only
says it, but shows it
Had he but waited awhile, had he only
showed that he loved me,
Even this Captain of yours—who
knows?—at last might have won me,
Old and rough as he is, but now it never
can happen.”