“When he had spoken, John Alden,
the fair-haired, taciturn stripling,
All aghast at his words, surprised, embarrassed,
bewildered,
Trying to mask his dismay by treating
the subject with lightness,
Trying to smile, and yet feeling his heart
stand still in his bosom.
Just as a timepiece stops in a house that
is stricken by lightning. 160
Thus made answer and spake, or rather
stammered than answered:
“Such a message as that, I am sure
I should mangle and mar it;
If you would have it well done,—I
am only repeating your maxim,—
You must do it yourself, you must not
leave it to others!”
But with the air of a man whom nothing
can turn from his purpose 165
Gravely shaking his head, made answer
the Captain of Plymouth:
“Truly the maxim is good, and I
do not mean to gainsay it;
But we must use it discreetly, and not
waste powder for nothing.
Now, as I said before, I was never a maker
of phrases.
I can march up to a fortress and summon
the place to surrender, 170
But march up to a woman with such a proposal,
I dare not.
I’m not afraid of bullets, nor shot
from the mouth of a cannon,
But of a thundering ‘No!’
point-blank from the mouth of a woman,
That I confess I’m afraid of, nor
am I ashamed to confess it!
So you must grant my request, for you
are an elegant scholar, 175
Having the graces of speech, and skill
in the turning of phrases,”
Taking the hand of his friend; who still
was reluctant and doubtful,
Holding it long in his own, and pressing
it kindly, he added:
“Though I have spoken thus lightly,
yet deep is the feeling
that prompts me;
Surely you cannot refuse what I ask in
the name of our friendship!” 180
Then made answer John Alden: “The
name of friendship is sacred;
What you demand in that name, I have not
the power to deny you!”
So the strong will prevailed, subduing
and moulding the gentler,
Friendship prevailed over love, and Alden
went on his errand.
III
THE LOVER’S ERRAND.
So the strong will prevailed, and Alden
went on his errand, 185
Out of the street of the village, and
into the paths of the forest,
Into the tranquil woods, where bluebirds
and robins were building
Towns in the populous trees, with hanging
gardens of verdure,
Peaceful, aerial cities of joy and affection,
and freedom!
All around him was calm, but within him
commotion and conflict, 190
Love contending with friendship, and self
with each generous impulse.
To and fro in his breast his thoughts
were heaving and dashing,
As in a foundering ship, with every roll
of the vessel,
Washes the bitter sea, the merciless surge
of the ocean!
“Must I relinquish it all,”
he cried with a wild lamentation,—
195
“Must I relinquish it all, the joy,
the hope, the illusion?[21]