years younger. She was a very dear, delightful
girl, that aunt of yours, of whom I suppose you know
nothing more than the name. She did not shine
so much by personal beauty and a cultivated mind, in
which your mother was far superior. It was her
good sense, the admirable sweetness of her nature,
her exceptional facility and ease in daily relations
that endeared her to everybody. Her death was
a terrible grief and a serious moral loss for us all.
Had she lived she would have brought the greatest
blessings to the house it would have been her lot
to enter, as wife, mother and mistress of a household.
She would have created round herself an atmosphere
of peace and content which only those who can love
unselfishly are able to evoke. Your mother—of
far greater beauty, exceptionally distinguished in
person, manner and intellect—had a less
easy disposition. Being more brilliantly gifted
she also expected more from life. At that trying
time especially, we were greatly concerned about her
state. Suffering in her health from the shock
of her father’s death (she was alone in the house
with him when he died suddenly), she was torn by the
inward struggle between her love for the man whom
she was to marry in the end and her knowledge of her
dead father’s declared objection to that match.
Unable to bring herself to disregard that cherished
memory and that judgment she had always respected
and trusted, and, on the other hand, feeling the impossibility
to resist a sentiment so deep and so true, she could
not have been expected to preserve her mental and
moral balance. At war with herself, she could
not give to others that feeling of peace which was
not her own. It was only later, when united at
last with the man of her choice that she developed
those uncommon gifts of mind and heart which compelled
the respect and admiration even of our foes. Meeting
with calm fortitude the cruel trials of a life reflecting
all the national and social misfortunes of the community,
she realised the highest conceptions of duty as a
wife, a mother and a patriot, sharing the exile of
her husband and representing nobly the ideal of Polish
womanhood. Our Uncle Nicholas was not a man very
accessible to feelings of affection. Apart from
his worship for Napoleon the Great, he loved really,
I believe, only three people in the world: his
mother—your great-grandmother, whom you
have seen but cannot possibly remember; his brother,
our father, in whose house he lived for so many years;
and of all of us, his nephews and nieces grown up
round him, your mother alone. The modest, lovable
qualities of the youngest sister he did not seem able
to see. It was I who felt most profoundly this
unexpected stroke of death falling upon the family
less than a year after I had become its head.
It was terribly unexpected. Driving home one wintry
afternoon to keep me company in our empty house, where
I had to remain permanently administering the estate
and attending to the complicated affairs—(the