an impression of what you, I fancy, have never
come in contact with. The little room—they
have but one—contains a bed, a table,
and some old chairs. A single stick of wood
burns in the fire-place. It is not needed now,
but those who sit near it have long ceased to know
what spring is. They are all frost.
Everything is old and faded, but at the same time
as clean and carefully mended as possible. For
all they know of pleasure is to get strength to
sweep those few boards, and mend those old spreads
and curtains. That sort of self-respect they
have, and it is all of pride their many years
of poor-tith has left them.
’And there they sit,—mother and daughter! In the mother, ninety years have quenched every thought and every feeling, except an imbecile interest about her daughter, and the sort of self-respect I just spoke of. Husband, sons, strength, health, house and lands, all are gone. And yet these losses have not had power to bow that palsied head to the grave. Morning by morning she rises without a hope, night by night she lies down vacant or apathetic; and the utmost use she can make of the day is to totter three or four times across the floor by the assistance of her staff. Yet, though we wonder that she is still permitted to cumber the ground, joyless and weary, “the tomb of her dead self,” we look at this dry leaf, and think how green it once was, and how the birds sung to it in its summer day.
’But can we think of spring, or summer, or anything joyous or really life-like, when we look at the daughter?—that bloodless effigy of humanity, whose care is to eke out this miserable existence by means of the occasional doles of those who know how faithful and good a child she has been to that decrepit creature; who thinks herself happy if she can be well enough, by hours of patient toil, to perform those menial services which they both require; whose talk is of the price of pounds of sugar, and ounces of tea, and yards of flannel; whose only intellectual resource is hearing five or six verses of the Bible read every day,—“my poor head,” she says, “cannot bear any more;” and whose only hope is the death to which she has been so slowly and wearily advancing, through many years like this.
’The saddest part is, that she does not wish for death. She clings to this sordid existence. Her soul is now so habitually enwrapt in the meanest cares, that if she were to be lifted two or three steps upward, she would not know what to do with life; how, then, shall she soar to the celestial heights? Yet she ought; for she has ever been good, and her narrow and crushing duties have been performed with a self-sacrificing constancy, which I, for one, could never hope to equal.
’While I listened to her,—and I often think it good for me to listen to her patiently,—the expressions you used in your letter, about “drudgery,” occurred to me. I remember the time when I, too, deified