would have given him the assistance of her conscience
in subduing her first inclination, and brought them
very often together. Would he have persevered,
and uprightly, Fanny must have been his reward—and
a reward very voluntarily bestowed—within
a reasonable period from Edmund’s marrying Mary.
Had he done as he intended, and as he knew he ought,
by going down to Everingham after his return from
Portsmouth, he might have been deciding his own happy
destiny. But he was pressed to stay for Mrs.
Fraser’s party: his staying was made of
flattering consequence, and he was to meet Mrs. Rushworth
there. Curiosity and vanity were both engaged,
and the temptation of immediate pleasure was too strong
for a mind unused to make any sacrifice to right;
he resolved to defer his Norfolk journey, resolved
that writing should answer the purpose of it, or that
its purpose was unimportant—and staid.
He saw Mrs. Rushworth, was received by her with a
coldness which ought to have been repulsive, and have
established apparent indifference between them for
ever: but he was mortified, he could not bear
to be thrown off by the woman whose smiles had been
so wholly at his command; he must exert himself to
subdue so proud a display of resentment: it was
anger on Fanny’s account; he must get the better
of it, and make Mrs. Rushworth Maria Bertram again
in her treatment of himself.
In this spirit he began the attack; and by animated
perseverance had soon re-established the sort of familiar
intercourse—of gallantry—of
flirtation—which bounded his views:
but in triumphing over the discretion, which, though
beginning in anger, might have saved them both, he
had put himself in the power of feelings on her side
more strong than he had supposed. She loved him;
there was no withdrawing attentions avowedly dear
to her. He was entangled by his own vanity, with
as little excuse of love as possible, and without the
smallest inconstancy of mind towards her cousin.
To keep Fanny and the Bertrams from a knowledge of
what was passing became his first object. Secrecy
could not have been more desirable for Mrs. Rushworth’s
credit than he felt it for his own. When he returned
from Richmond, he would have been glad to see Mrs.
Rushworth no more. All that followed was the result
of her imprudence; and he went off with her at last
because he could not help it, regretting Fanny even
at the moment, but regretting her infinitely more
when all the bustle of the intrigue was over, and a
very few months had taught him, by the force of contrast,
to place a yet higher value on the sweetness of her
temper, the purity of her mind, and the excellence
of her principles.